In the last couple of days, we’ve paid attention to lower and higher vibrational choices. In today’s reading, you will also notice individuals making lower and higher vibrational choices. However, yesterday’s tip said:
Reality transcends all vibrations and all experience.
Today, we will get a sense for reality.
In NTI Mark, Jesus goes through initial purification, clearing away many beliefs and much of his conditioning, during the 40-days and 40-nights in the desert. NTI Mark doesn’t go into detail about Jesus’ initial purification. The majority of NTI Mark is focused on the phase that follows purification, which is called “merging” in NTI. Merging is the process of awakening to consciousness as Self.
The merging process can be gradual or it can be abrupt. In NTI, Jesus experiences a gradual merging, which occurs between the initial purification in the desert and the night of his arrest. The practices that facilitate Jesus’ merging are discernment, kindness and surrender. Jesus also took time for private contemplation and meditation.
In the Garden of Gethsemane, just prior to Jesus’ arrest, fear drives Jesus to surrender more deeply than ever before. On that night, Jesus surrenders his sense of self-existence, which is known as “will.” This surrender was the final death of the ego. It was also awakening beyond consciousness to absolute reality, which is the First Principle of God. To think of Jesus as a man after this point is a mistake. He is no longer a man. He is life-awareness.
There are a few sentences in today’s reading that give hints about the life-awareness that appears as Jesus. Instead of seeing the physical scene directly, it is moved by the highest vibration of code although it is simultaneously beyond that vibration.
For example, Jesus does not see men bullying him. He sees love desiring love. He does not see crucifixion. He is “fully consumed with love and gratitude and reality.”
As the scribe of NTI, I experienced a vision of Jesus on the cross. In that vision, I was Jesus. In other words, the awareness that I refer to as “I” saw through the eyes of the Jesus-body and knew the realization that was known. Let me describe that vision to you:
I was hanging on the cross, meaning the body was hanging on the cross. The body’s eyes still saw in the same way they have always seen, so the body saw soldiers casting lots for clothing; a woman known as “my mother” bent over in agony and surrounded by friends; men dressed in priests’ robes discussing what they saw; some angry faces, and rocks being thrown. The body also saw people going in and out of Jerusalem through a nearby gate, going about their normal day’s activities. This is what the body saw.
However, I was not connected to the body’s sight at all. There was no mind thinking about or interpreting what the body saw. It is fair to say there was no focus on these sights, just as you typically put no attention on many unimportant sights and sounds that your senses pick up on everyday.
My awareness was completely filled with love-gratitude-joy as one thing, not three. And I knew reality, which was nothing that the body sensed. Although the body’s eyes saw physical sights, I was not aware of those things; the body was aware of those things. A scene was present, but I was not part of that scene. I wasn’t aware of “I” or “me,” and I wasn’t aware that there was no “I” or “me.” Those concepts were non-existent. There were no concepts and no thinking. There was only direct knowing (as contrasted with indirect knowing, which isn’t knowing at all).
That is as far as I can go in describing the vision. I knew the vision was a taste of full enlightenment, and I knew enlightenment had no relationship to this world. As Bernadette Roberts described it, “It is a different dimension entirely.”
