Today’s story is symbolic of your relationship with the inner Teacher. When you read today, you will notice that Jesus has an early discussion with the apostles about doubt and a later discussion with the apostles about doubt. The content of the discussions are different, because as the apostles go deeper with the teaching, Jesus is able to be more direct and point towards deeper truths. This is also true in your relationship with the inner Teacher.
When people are new in their relationship with the inner Teacher and new to the journaling process, the wisdom received from the inner Teacher is often filled with encouragement. People are told, “You are love,” “You are loved,” “You are innocent,” “You are light,” “You are my perfect child,” and etcetera. This encouragement is needed in the beginning, because the student is afraid, lacks confidence and is full of doubt. However, if the student progresses with the teachings, at some point the wisdom received from the inner Teacher is more pointed—sharper, clearer, drilling onward and inward.
In order for this advancement to happen, the student needs to put her doubts aside. If the student stays at the level of believing her fears, doubts and unworthiness, the wisdom will stay at the level of encouragement. If the student puts her fears aside with the honest intention to purify and realize truth, the inner Teacher will assist clearly and directly. It’s important to note that the inner Teacher will only go as far as the student is willing. The inner Teacher will not violate your freewill.
Today’s reading says, “More and more, the apostles began to seek private counsel with Jesus to discuss their fear and doubts.” This is an example of how you should use your journal. Be absolutely honest with wisdom as you look directly at your fears, doubts, guilt, unworthiness and upsets. Give inner wisdom permission to go beyond simple encouragement to dissection; that is, to helping you see exactly how you make mistakes in your thinking, believing and perceiving.
Today’s reading says, “Jesus responded lovingly with every discussion brought to him. Never did the apostles feel judged.” You can trust inner wisdom to be the same with you. As you allow directness, there will be extremely helpful and insightful directness, but never judgment.
In today’s reading, Jesus asks the apostles, “And who do you say I am?” Peter answers, “You are me, master…the Son of God…the Christ.”
Through this answer, Peter demonstrates that he is becoming aware of consciousness. Jesus did not teach about consciousness directly. His teaching focused on practice and parables instead of direct theory. So, when Peter revealed this clarity, Jesus knew Peter was listening to inner wisdom.
In today’s reading, Jesus says this to the apostles:
The Voice within will lead you clearly when you give it your trust and put your doubts aside. It will reveal truths to you that you have not imagined, and so you will know they are true.”
I can tell you from my own experience that this is true. First, journaling will advance from pure encouragement to dissection, and then when enough dissection has occurred, truth will begin to shine through in your journal—truth that you have never realized before. Although truth is never new, it will seem new to you. It will seem new, because it is dawning fresh for you as a direct insight. It will be beyond any understanding that ever occurred intellectually through learning. As you continue to advance, the wisdom in your journal will continue to advance, and it will lead you all the way to truth realization.
Of course, you must practice the guidance that comes through your journal. To merely write and be amazed at the clarity is not enough. In order for your journal to continue to progress, you must progress by practicing everything the journal gives you to practice.
Thoughts of Awakening #42
Do not think.
Listen and accept.
To think is to think you know
and to think you can decide,
because to think is to believe
that you are all that you think you are.
To not think is to trust
that you are more than you think
and more than your thoughts.
To not think is to allow an opening
through which you may discover.
~From our Holy Spirit
