Today’s reading teaches that there is a direct correlation between how we see now and how we want to see. For some, this may be hard to read. Often people want to believe that their desire for truth is stronger than it is. However, we can see how strong our desire for truth is by looking at exactly how we see (and experience) now.

Why do we want to believe that our desire for truth is stronger than it is?

As we learned in NTI Luke, we believe that we are inherently guilty for seeing ourselves as separate individuals. We feel guilty for seeing ourselves as some thing, because that isn’t truth; life is what we are. Interestingly, seeing ourselves as guilty is an ego preservation strategy.

How is it an ego preservation strategy?

Seeing ourselves as guilty is seeing ourselves as something. In order to see ourselves (and everything else) as it is, we need to let go of all beliefs that we have about what we are. We also need to let go of all beliefs about what others are, what the world is and what the world is supposed to be.

Today’s reading says:

When a man welcomes the Light fully, he ceases to be a man, and he becomes the Light. For the Light is a presence that denies the existence of man. It knows only the Light. … To know the Light is to know eternity.

It is as Floyd Henderson wrote in his book, The Blissful Abidance Series:

The entire contents [of the mind] must be discarded if you would “fill the cup” with that which can bring you something with a taste that can be enjoyed. There is no other way than the way of emptiness first, fullness second…

When all learned ignorance is tossed, then everything that also accompanies ignorance will go. … You will have returned to Your original nature … You will have tasted the sweet taste of the nectar of immortality.

Michael Langford teaches that the most important first step you can take toward awakening in this lifetime is to increase your desire for awakening.

Michael Langford teaches, “another great key is self-honesty.” He writes:

Self-honesty will help in all aspects of the quest for liberation. Self-honesty will help you to increase your desire for liberation.

That means that in spite of the ego’s tendency to pretend that our desire for awakening is greater than it is, it is actually most helpful to be honest about our level of desire. When we pretend that our desire is greater than it is, we hold onto the repressed belief that we are guilty. When we are honest without guilt, we let go of the belief that we are guilty. That is letting go of one of the ego’s core preservation strategies.

Yesterday’s tip pointed this out:

The wish to be something leads to identification with a specific body-mind-personality as ‘me,’ which leads to a distorted way of seeing—seeing form as primary and life as secondary. When the wish to be something dissolves, the distorted way of seeing dissolves too, and then we see life as primary and form as secondary. With this shift in the way we see, everything changes.

NTI John opens with a focus on light as primary. “Light” is the symbol for eternal, non-changing life, the essence. “Darkness” is the symbol of the ego’s distorted way of seeing form as primary.

The light is truth, so the light is always present. If we see with darkness instead of light, it is because we think we are something. Of course, that is how most humans see. One might wonder why any human ever awakens to the light. Why does anyone desire to know the light when the perspective of darkness is accepted as truth in the world?

The best answer to that question is simply that light is our truth—eternal life is what we are—and a belief that we are something cannot fully block truth. At some point, the truth begins to tug at our heart. If we follow its promptings, that tug grows stronger until we find ourselves driven to rediscover truth. That search is never futile, because everything is that which we seek, and it responds to our desire to see it (and ourselves) as it is.

It is as Michael Langford wrote in The Most Direct Means to Eternal Bliss:

• When your desire for freedom becomes very intense, your desire for freedom demands that you take no detours.

 

• When the desire for freedom becomes even stronger, the desire for freedom itself will bring you everything you need to succeed in your quest for liberation including the answer to all your questions, finding the Direct Path teachings, the solution to all obstacles, etc.

 

• The extremely intense desire for the Direct Experience of the absolute Truth will guide you to your inner Teacher.

 

• The extremely intense desire for Truth will guide you to the practice that gives the Direct Experience of eternal life.

In other words, the way to truth realization is to follow our desire for truth realization. If we follow our desire, and keep it foremost in our minds, everything else will happen naturally to bring us to awakening.