\u201cThe losing of identity is a golden gun. It was not easy to hold it against my head and fire, but necessary. I needed great faith in my masters to suffocate myself through their holy bag of full of truth. I needed great courage to go out into the dark, tracking God into the unknown and not panic or get lost in all the startling new scents and sounds and sights or lose my temper tripping over those scheming night and day around me. Losing identity is the emerald dagger you need to plunge deep into yourself upon this path of divine recovery, upon this path to God.\u201d [Hafiz]<\/p>\n
This faith, this trust is something that is learned. Everyone has had a relationship with trust in the world. You\u2019ve trusted what you know. You\u2019ve trusted the past. And you\u2019ve been afraid of the future because of what you\u2019ve trusted in the past. You probably don\u2019t look at it as trusting the past because at the same time you trusted the past, you hated the past. And yet, that\u2019s what you believed in and that\u2019s where trust develops.<\/p>\n
In the journey of love, you\u2019re being called to trust in something that you forgot. You\u2019re being called to trust and put faith in a journey that, most of the time, seems upside down, inside and out, and that your mind that made a false world can\u2019t…can\u2019t make sense of. It doesn\u2019t make any sense to realize that losing identity is a golden gun. The ego mind says don\u2019t be ridiculous. My purpose here is to win. My purpose is to protect and defend what I already know, and to find the secret ingredient of winning over others. But the journey of love has a different purpose. It\u2019s your true journey. It\u2019s the only reality of the purpose of incarnation to remember your brilliance, your innocence. And even the word \u201cyour\u201d is used here…it\u2019s not \u201cyours\u201d as an identity. It is yours as the one heart of God. And this is why it is so essential to learn to offer love because you are offering love to reflections of yourself. As you learn to love without conditions, you\u2019re learning to love your Divine Self, to come home to that reality.<\/p>\n
It isn\u2019t easy to hold the golden gun against your own head, but when you come to this place of the realization that you want nothing else and you can\u2019t even stand another day of not meeting the Beloved, you gladly put the golden gun to your head. You no longer want the mind of suspicions and lack and winning. You long for peace. You long for resting in that love because the truth of you is stirring from deep within.<\/p>\n
I needed great faith in my master to suffocate myself with his holy bag of truth. And it is that. It is that that you don\u2019t want to listen to any more of the self-proclaimed masters in the world that have nothing to do with anything spiritual but are the loud voices of the ego that say winning is the way. Success is the way. All of those voices need to be turned away from. But, not in condemnation, but in love. To turn away from the voice of the lies of knowing, of getting, of proving, of winning. And instead turning the heart towards all these Beloveds and offering love, offering without conditions, the purity and innocence of who they truly are. To suffocate yourself in truth is a delicious way to go. It\u2019s the only way, actually, to go. To love truth so much that you become a glutton of all the divine teachings that fill your heart with light. When you accept divine teachings, light is pouring into you. Not that you aren\u2019t already the light, but it meets the light that has been hidden within you. All of the mysteries of the universe begin to become revealed. You begin to see light everywhere. You begin to see with your heart all the purity and innocence of everything. How does this occur except through your willingness to suffocate yourself in truth. To drink in so much truth that you\u2019re going to burst. To join with all the divine beings in the forgiveness of all beliefs of limitation and separation.<\/p>\n
I needed great courage to go out into the dark, tracking God into the unknown and not to panic or get lost in all the startling new scents and sounds and sights. It does take this great courage to follow the way that the masters have laid. It does take great courage to recognize the scents and the sounds and the vibration of love that is everywhere and is just beyond the old identities that you made in belief of separation. All of those old identities were made with fear and contempt and bitterness. None of them were real. None of them were true. You don\u2019t have to suffer along the way back to love. But, there seems to be an attachment to suffering that convinces everyone that they need to struggle to return home. But as one of my teachers said to me it isn\u2019t your healing that is difficult, it\u2019s your resistance against it. And that resistance was very dominant for what seemed to be a long time until finally the white flag gets raised. Deeper and deeper and deeper you raise the white flag and say \u201cI haven\u2019t got a clue-what I\u2019m doing, how to look at anything or how to make my way back. You have to show me because I don\u2019t have a clue.\u201d And love gladly shows you. And there is a deep place of relaxing, resting in God, as you learn to love. As you learn to take in the divine teachings and want to see only with the heart of love, that you refuse to accept all of the opinions and assessments and judgments of the past that you believed were righteous, you believed that they were authentic and that they made sense. And you even felt a certain satisfaction in their justification. But all of that has to be not only surrendered, but forgiven. To forgive is to let it be washed away, no longer wanted in any way, to let love lead you home.<\/p>\n
The loss of identity is the emerald dagger you need to plunge deep into yourself on this path of divine recovery. It is a divine recovery from a world that is insane. It\u2019s important to recognize the insanity that is held in the mind that believes it knows and believes in its ways. Why is it held so tightly? Because everything in your whole system of separation said, if I know enough, I\u2019ll win. I\u2019ll win and I\u2019ll find a way of being safe and getting my due. When you believe that you have been unfairly treated and that you have been denied your worth and you believe that it was done from the outside, everything in you wants a payback. You don\u2019t want to learn to offer love because everything in the back of the unconscious mind says that you need to have a fair exchange. Everything that you offer you need to see a return, an acknowledgement…it doesn\u2019t matter how it shows up. It doesn\u2019t even matter what you give in the world. You can give something that looks like an offering through financial. It doesn\u2019t mean you want the financial back, it means that you want to have it recognized, you want to somehow be acknowledged, you want it to somehow be a feeling within yourself that you are good. This happens very often with donations to churches where the temptation is \u201cI want my name to be known of what I gave\u201d instead of bringing it to the church in the darkness and leaving it anonymously because that is where your healing is: to learn that there is nothing to get, only offering of love.<\/p>\n
If you see someone with something in the world that you believe is not evenly distributed, that you believe that that is out of balance or why do they deserve to have when somebody else doesn\u2019t deserve to have. All of these thoughts are being called to be surrendered and let go because love makes no conditions. And the only way that the world will heal is in each Beloved opening their hearts and learning to love without expectations of any kind. To give deeply and fully not out of obligation, never out of obligation, and never out of pity, and never out of guilt. Those three elements cannot ever bring you to peace or teach you the truth of love. There are no obligations with love. There\u2019s a natural state of love, but it has nothing to do with any obligation. You owe me? No. There\u2019s nothing owed, there is no exchange, there is no evenness. It is all absolutely balanced and harmonious. Love is by its very nature all balance and all harmony. But once the mind enters into the game of conflict and the rules that have been made up in the name of separation, love is gone. There is no love offered. So, it can never be through obligation, it can never be through expectation, it can never be through reciprocity, of expectations of getting something in return. And those beliefs of reciprocity of getting are so deeply ingrained that most of them can\u2019t be easily seen. Everybody has felt that place of giving something and wanting others to be aware of it. Or giving something and having a sensation that comes from within…that it\u2019s not a place of peace or joy…it\u2019s a high. It\u2019s a high of pleasure of being recognized for your giving. But, there is absolutely no love in it.<\/p>\n
When the ego is involved, it\u2019s all to get. It\u2019s all in a belief that there is only scarcity and not the abundance of love that is actually being called to be awakened from within. And in the world one of the funniest places is what\u2019s known in the world as co-dependency where even in the belief that you want to rescue someone from the idea of being without but in actuality the reason that you want to rescue them is because you believe that they are without and that they need to be rescued, and you join them in the false identity instead of truly bringing to them the strength of love, of their innocence, of their intrinsic perfect Self, and bringing that strength to them through your willingness to love. It\u2019s a deep deep learning.<\/p>\n
The belief that to give to someone will change the relationship is another element that the ego loves to use. You see a relationship that disturbs you and instead of bringing love to it and peace and harmony and seeing the Beloved only as their true light…instead you want them to behave differently. You want them to change the way that they behave so that you will feel better. There\u2019s no love there either. It isn\u2019t so that they will be eased out of the pain that they are displaying, and that you bring love to them. It\u2019s so that they will change their behavior so that you will feel better. But there\u2019s no love there. Because love is the offering of the truth that they are the light of God and that their behavior, their call for love, their cry for love…is all that you\u2019re answering. You\u2019re not looking to get something from them or to feel better through them, you\u2019re looking to offer love, and being called to see their divine Self, not so that they will act differently, or if the situation was changed that you will feel safer or better. There\u2019s just no love there. And this is what humanity has used in the name of love.<\/p>\n
The urgency and the feeling of wanting to change the circumstances of others so that you will feel better is a desperate place of fear. There\u2019s no love there. It\u2019s seeing the world as a dangerous place that needs repair rather than to see past the beliefs of the past and really see the innocence of each Beloved and offer them that truth, not necessarily in words, but just as the Beloved who came as Jesus showed in every moment…he showed how to love without conditions. He didn\u2019t say to anyone \u201cI want you to be different. I want you to straighten out and change your behaviors so that I can like you again.\u201d He loved without conditions. He had no opinion about all the Beloveds who were so fearful that they condemned him and hated him in that moment. He didn\u2019t join them. He completely saw through their pain to their call for love and gave without limitation. He didn\u2019t have them sign a contract saying \u201cI\u2019ll give you this if you give me back respect\u201d. He saw their pain of their own self-hatred and brought them the truth of their innocence. And this is where all the healing is. This is where the healing is for all humanity, is to love without conditions.<\/p>\n
How easy is it to hold a grievance. Especially after you believe that you\u2019ve offered love or you\u2019ve offered something to someone and they don\u2019t either acknowledge it or they don\u2019t reciprocate to your mind. Then a grievance can be held very easily of being believed to be unfairly treated. Well, what happens is that the lessons of learning to love are completely misunderstood, and, all of a sudden you\u2019re going on an off ramp that has no relationship to learning to love. You can use the name of love, but it isn\u2019t really love that you\u2019re offering, because you\u2019re not offering it without conditions. So, it\u2019s a very deep place, a very deep place.<\/p>\n
To go out into the dark tracking God. To go out into the dark and track God is to track every Beloved and to see the truth of God in each divine being that\u2019s walking around in a body. Most have no relationship to the journey of remembering. It hasn\u2019t woken up in them yet. It doesn\u2019t matter. You\u2019re there to bring love to them, not with teachings that you\u2019re going to memorize, but with your heart. That you have no expectations of them to acknowledge you in any way, but you are there just to bring peace and harmony and no judgment. Your heart will be expanded as you let go of the belief that judgment has any purpose, because it has absolutely none. The idea that you would be the one that you would bring you into someone\u2019s life and that you would be their judge, that you would be the one who was sent to have an opinion about their being right or wrong or liking their behaviors. There\u2019s a beautiful teaching that actually says it is none of your business how someone else walks their journey. The only call is the call to love. The ego would like it to be the ego\u2019s business of the ones who are more advanced in the ego\u2019s mind to be the ones that would set the world right and have everybody straightened out. But there\u2019s nothing there except the ego wearing a costume.<\/p>\n
Imagine that a beloved friend calls you and speaks to you for hours about their beliefs and their pains and the Holy Spirit is whispering in your ear the whole time just keep offering love. Just keep your heart open and make no opinions of anything until I give you the word that will help. And you\u2019re just listening to the Holy Spirit and you\u2019re letting your heart stay open for the hours that this Beloved is in their confusion, in their upsidedowness. And your learning is to have no opinion about what you think of it, but just holding the truth of love with them. And then the Holy Spirit starts speaking the words that the Holy Spirit wants you to speak. And the words are of comfort, and ease, and forgiveness because they\u2019ve done nothing, and they\u2019ve always been the light of God. And you offer those words. There would be nothing in you that would expect a payment back because the words weren\u2019t yours to begin with. The offering wasn\u2019t yours to begin with. You were in the channel of love, learning to offer the love of God. And you are blessed by those words that came from God and you pass them on. There\u2019s nothing in you that gave anything that you manufactured or you made. It\u2019s the love of God that you are offering. It has to be passed on. It has to be extended. It has to be expanded. It\u2019s how we learn of the universe and its magnificence and its fullness by offering that love without conditions.<\/p>\n
The spirit of transformation…if you accept and ask for the help, the spirit of transformation will take you into the careful searching of your own mind that made the distortions of trying to get. Let the spirit of transformation take you into an honesty within to illuminate all the beliefs of trying to get anything, and opening that doorway so that they can all be released. So you can be freed from the pain and the poison of the belief that there is something to get. But, in order to be willing to open those channels of healing and letting the spirit of transformation actually transform your own mind, you\u2019re accepting that beneath those beliefs of trying to get is the wholeness of your heart, where you\u2019re willing to recognize that you have everything, that you are everything, that nothing of love has been damaged. And the more that you offer that love, the more you recognize it. You\u2019re blessed in the same moment, but not because you\u2019re trying to get anything, just because blessings occur all the time.<\/p>\n
How many times have you worried about somebody else\u2019s journey? When you worry about somebody else\u2019s journey and what it looks like, you\u2019re saying I know something. I know how things should look. I know how things should go. But you\u2019re not recognizing that you\u2019re only calling is to put that Beloved into the hands of God and recognize that their journey is with God and you\u2019re there just to offer love. You\u2019re not there to criticize or have an opinion about what their journey should look like, but to keep offering love and strength to each Beloved that they are the light of God. That they don\u2019t have to worry about their journey. It\u2019s guaranteed. Every Beloved\u2019s journey is guaranteed that they\u2019re going to remember the truth of love. That\u2019s the journey. To go honestly and to keep letting the illumination of God reveal the way to walk on this Earth.<\/p>\n
Show me how to love. I\u2019m willing. I\u2019m willing to learn the way of love, pure, without any expectations of acknowledgement or return. Nothing to get. To have a clean and pure relationship with the truth that there is nothing to get is a calling to be willing to be in honesty within. To be honestly searching…am I trying to get something? Is there something that I want in return? Acknowledgement. What is it? Anything? I want to be open and clean and without reservation. Offer love without conditions.<\/p>\n
I want to learn. I want to learn the way that the masters came to show me. I want to remember. To put my faith in the masters that were sent to me. And I want to suffocate myself in their bag of truth. I want to cleanse and I want the mind to be cleansed by the truth so that there is nothing left of all the rules I made up in the belief of separation. I want to be freed from the rules that I made about giving and taking and getting. I want it all cleansed.<\/p>\n
Let that be your power prayer. I want to be cleansed and learn to love.<\/p>\n
This path to God. Have your intention just cleanse everything that I made up and only the love will remain. Easily and effortlessly the spirit of love, the spirit of transformation will cleanse everything. And the only thing that is really necessary for cleansing is just what\u2019s been made up. It\u2019s not reality. It\u2019s just the past identity saying…I am without. But we learn that we are never without by actually offering love because as we offer love without conditions, we expand into the universe. Truly. It isn\u2019t a high. It\u2019s a state of being. It isn\u2019t a payoff, a sense of a job well done. It isn\u2019t like getting an A on your report card. It\u2019s that blissful, peaceful resting into the universe of love. And, what you recognize in that is \u201cahh…this is more like home. This is the garden of love.\u201d It\u2019s just a place of offering love. Every time you experience an irritation, and everyone in the belief of separation recognizes that place…that is the opportunity of refusing that irritation and recognizing if there is an irritation it\u2019s because there was an expectation of getting something that you believe you didn\u2019t get, and it\u2019s the opportunity of healing in that moment. That there is no battle. There\u2019s nothing to fight with and there\u2019s nothing to get from anyone.<\/p>\n
YOU ARE the complete light of God and the journey is at the same time directed inward to find your innocent heart with God and at the same time offering love to the expansion of the universe, to everyone that is your reflection. And everything is your reflection. Offer that love. Just the willingness to have your heart open without any reserve. If you have someone that seems to be in conflict with you…more love. More love, more love, more love. More innocence, more blessings and no opinions. And, that becomes your place of peace. That becomes your restful sleep. Your restful lack of guilt, because guilt is waiting constantly to be stirred up. And it always comes from personal opinions and ideas of the past. There\u2019s nothing to get. You have everything. Love is always all that there is.<\/p>\n
I needed great courage to go out into the dark tracking God into the unknown and not panic or get lost in all of the startling new scents, sounds and sights or lose my temper tripping on those scheming night and day around me. No one to lose your temper with. Not having any more temper at all, because the temper you thought was natural disappeared in offering love having no expectations, only love. Every teaching is the same…only love, only blessings, only comfort. Only love.<\/p>\n
Chris Celine \u00a9 2015<\/p>\n