Lesson 97. I am Spirit.
What a wonderful reminder this tip provides. We are not that which we have spent so many years imagining ourselves to be. I am not this thing I believe myself to be—I am Spirit.
“Today’s idea identifies you with your one Self. It accepts no split identity, nor tries to weave opposing factors into unity. It simply states the truth”.
We have a ready avenue for remembering the truth that the self-made concept has covered over—awareness watching awareness. In spending time in awareness watching awareness (or awareness being aware of itself), we lay aside our self concepts, even if momentarily, to make room for the answer that is given when we ask, “What Am I?”
Recently, in my Satsang Interview with Eshwar Segobind, he asked one of our members the same question he had asked me in our prep for the interview: “Tell me who you are without using concepts.” This invitation is the same one we make to Holy Spirit/Inner Wisdom/Consciousness in awareness watching awareness meditation: “I am willing to set my concepts aside and not believe a single thing I have ever believed about myself in the past. In this space left empty of my ideas and concepts, please tell me who I am.”
My experience when attempting to answer Eshwar’s question was a bit of disorientation. How can you say who you are with no point of reference? I could see the thinking mind wanting to define/describe/narrate. But, without concepts, it felt unsettled—a bit threatened. I shared with you in the last Gentle Healing group that this “wobble” is where I want to be. This wobble is where Truth is welcomed.
This lesson is inviting all of us into this undefined space. It may feel uncertain, but only because the thinking mind has nothing to hang its hat on—by refusing to participate in formulating concepts, its illusory underpinnings are removed. Sitting in the wobble takes faith and courage as we let go our familiar foundation of self and reach to understand, with a felt sense rather than the thinking mind, True Self. As the Course promises, in this unoccupied space, “What you Are will tell you of Itself.”
In my spiritual aspiration and vision plan, I have committed to living in that undefined space (wobble) as much as possible: to see where I am applying meaning; to let go comparisons; to let go my self concept as the orienting factor in the experiences I encounter; and, to deeply consider as often as possible throughout the day, “If I am not what I have always thought myself to be, what am I?”
In this short meditation video, Mooji extends the same invitation, to experience yourself without self image. You may wish to use the video for one of your hourly practice periods today.
