Lesson 94. I am as God created me.
Today we continue with looking at the self concept issue that most of us experience. In yesterday’s tip, Jacquelyn pointed out “Most of us have an unworthiness or ‘I am bad’ belief. In fact, only those who have transcended the belief are not beleaguered by it, in one form or another.” When I read the title of today’s lesson my thought was, if this is true–I am as God created me–then I can’t be bad. That is why as this lesson says this idea brings complete salvation. I’m not bad because of what I am. I am God’s Son. I am the Life Force that moves through everything. Through Connie. Through the tree. I am the animating factor that is. I am and you are the window that consciousness looks through.
Today’s lesson says, “Darkness cannot obscure the glory of the Son of God.” How could Darkness obscure the Life force that moves through everything? What is darkness, but unforgiven appearances? Like what? Oh, the I am bad thought. The bedrock of our unforgiven appearance is our belief that we are the body/mind/personality. The I am bad concept is just meant to maintain that bedrock belief. It is meant to keep us involved in the story. If I continue to believe I am a human being will I “attempt to feel the truth in [me]” as this lesson asks us to do with the first five minutes of each waking hour? “Now try to reach the Son of God in you. This is the Self Which never left Its home in God, to walk the world uncertainly. This is the Self Which knows no fear, nor could conceive of loss or suffering or death.” This is the Self that knows its truth.
Self inquiry is a tool that helps us see that truth. It is important to recognize that Self Inquiry requires us to actually look!
Many people who study A Course in Miracles study at the level of mind–at the level of thinking–so when they come to Lesson 94, they adopt the idea, “I am as God created me,” including their imagination of what that means to them. It doesn’t penetrate very deep, because it is only at the level of mind.
We are now at the phase of Self-inquiry. Self-inquiry has nothing to do with thinking. Self-inquiry is LOOKING. For people who believe everything is resolved by thinking, it takes practice to drop thinking and practice looking, but it can be done. With looking you have the attitude of, “What am I?” and then you LOOK with inner-looking, intuitive looking, to realize the answer.
Mooji, in the video that follows, asks us, “What is it that simply is?” Self inquiry looks! It looks past the concepts. “I am as God created me.” Self inquiry looks and sees the truth of that. We are not a character who is bad or even good, as this lesson tries to convey, we are the “Self That never sinned, nor made an image to replace reality.” We are awareness being aware. Will you inquire to the truth of you and all that is?
