Lesson 152. The power of decision is my own.
This lesson says, “Nothing occurs but represents your wish, and nothing is omitted that you choose. Here is your world, complete in all details.” Wait a minute. I would not choose a lot of what goes on in the world. What goes on in this world breaks my heart. How could these terrible things that occur represent my wish?
NTI Acts 23 answers my question and gives an example in the explanation, “If you are not separate from anything at all, then everything that is must be a part of you. When you look at the world, you see cruelty. This cruelty you see as separate from you. Yet if you are honest, you know that the cruelty lives in a wish. It is important to note that the cruelty is a wish, for a wish is not what you are. A wish is what you are not, but what you may pretend to be.” Okay, so I can see that these wishes are very powerful, but I’m not sure I believe that I have had a hand in creating the suffering of the world. It would appear that these wishes are a part of the illusion and they are not therefore the truth. If my decision is so powerful and I must own it, what can I do about it?
Again, NTI Acts 23 has the answer, “In order to see beyond the wish that you made, you must take away the wish. I am showing you the wish that you have made, so you may choose to let go of the wish. The wish you have made, you have denied, and you do not want to claim it. You see your wish as a terrible sin, and you fear more than anything to face it. But it is important for you to know that if you do not face it and let it go, the wish continues to be wished. It is a wish that you have made, and it has all the power you have given it. As such, the wish continues until you face the wish and choose not to wish it anymore.”
Okay, maybe I have been a little mean before so I can see how cruelty lives in a wish. So what other wishes must I take responsibility for? Well, I guess I do go around saying I just hate it when the gas stations don’t make sure there is paper for the receipts at the pumps. It makes me so angry that I am quiet often rude to the cashier when they hand me the receipt. And today, when I had fast food for lunch, the kids running the restaurant were a joke. They gave me no utensils, the wrong drink and they prepared my food incorrectly. Again, I was angry and probably rude.
If I’m being guided to watch my wishes (decisions) and how these decisions affect the world and more directly my experiences, I can see that I certainly have had a hand in the way these circumstances played out. I perpetuated a rude, non-caring world where people are in a hurry and want things their way and when they don’t go that way they feel justified being rude.
It sure looks like my wishes or decisions have creations in this illusory world. I see I have been unconscious, okay repeatedly unconscious, and my experiences reflect this state of mind. It looks like I have added to the suffering in the world and I am grateful that my unconscious behavior has no effect on truth. It does not affect truth, but my decisions based on what I believed and desired shaped my experience and possibly created a negative experience for the gas station cashier and the kids running the fast food restaurant.
I’m glad for this lesson and what it has shown me. I am glad to face the wishes/decisions I make and accept and understand that I am a co-creator in the world. I now know that “the power of decision is my own.”
