Lesson 149. My mind holds only what I think with God.
(137) When I am healed I am not healed alone.
(138) Heaven is the decision I must make.
I am not healed alone, because this very idea carries with it the notion of separation. As I have often said, there is only one thing going on here. That “thing” is the awakening of the one mind unto itself. It is for this reason that all my mighty companions are having epiphanies that feel so similar to the ones “I” have been experiencing. I look at the world outside this spiritually oriented circle of friends and family, however, and what I see doesn’t look like the healing of the one mind. Rather, outside that circle, it appears as if the divisions are deeper and greater than ever before. It occurs to me that this phenomenon is reflective of the healing process I witness in this little space of the mind/body/personality of Jacquelyn. Those parts that aren’t healed are more heated, more pronounced than before as the ego seemingly battles for survival. Is this, indeed, a reflection of that same seeming process? I can’t know the answer to that. I do know that as I look out on the world, I know that what I see need not be different. I know that all is well. I know that life itself lives.
Even as I seem to be a mind/body/personality walking about in a world of others like me but somehow removed from me, I know that when I am healed, I am not healed alone. How could that be? My healing is my extension of peace and wholeness to those whom I encounter. I see it in them. I feel the desire within them for connection and the extension of love and gratitude towards me in equal measure to that extended them. This is not to say I never encounter someone “having a bad day.” But, my heart opens to them as well. It is in my remembrance of our joint true desire that I join with them. I am blessed to offer love and receive the same from all I see.
Heaven is a decision I have made and continue to make as I become enlightened to one thought at a time. I have become more interested in removing the blocks to awareness of True Nature than in maintaining an image of myself. I have become less defensive and self-protective. It still stings a bit when I uncover a blind spot, but in my heart I am happy. I pray for my undoing. I submit my self to be undone.
