Lesson 148. My mind holds only what I think with God.
(135) If I defend myself I am attacked
(136) Sickness is a defense against the truth
We are beginning to think (or not think) from a new perspective. Many of us, until recently, have been wrong about what we think we think and how the mind works or doesn’t work. We are now aware enough that we know we don’t want to come from that unconscious chatter that claims to be us. We want to stop defending ourselves. Aren’t we cognitive enough to ask, ‘who would I defend myself from?’
I’m ready to change. Until recently I used defenses casually, almost jokingly to justify everything. I forgot to do so and so, oh I must be getting old. I never have been good with numbers, you will have to figure it out. I was raised to think _____ so I can’t go there. I always let my husband do that because men do that sort of thing. When we use defenses like I’m too old, too fat, too ugly, too poor, too sick, too tired, too weak, or too busy we are confirming with more power than we might realize our limitations as we unconsciously believe them. This is an attack against ourselves. These are attacks on truth because the mind, the perceiver of life as we know it, believes it when we say and think these concepts.
Some might say we are just protecting ourselves, but in so doing we are hiding the truth about ourselves from ourselves. Maybe you just think you need for some things to change in order for you to be happy or safe or whatever you are defending yourself against. Nevertheless, when we defend ourselves we are making a choice, conscious or not, to identify with the deceived mind, attack ourselves and others and keep our minds focused in the world. I’m ready to let go of these interpretations, mind chattering concepts and justifications. I’m ready to drop the habit of ignorance and turn attention toward the heart, towards truth.
