Please take time this morning to read, “What is Forgiveness,” to contemplate Lesson 229, and to spend time in meditation. If you have 30-minutes for meditation and would like a gentle audio to guide you, I recommend this meditation by Michael Langford and Karen Worth:
Love, which created me, is what I am.
In her original Gentle Healing Year 1 tip for Lesson 229, Regina wrote, “Today, while observing awareness presence in meditation, notice it is love. Notice it is incapable of being anything but love. It has no judgement in it, no comparison, and no resistance. Also, notice it is what you are. This means, of course, that you are love.”
After I read this I thought, ‘What?’ I have never experienced Love in my awareness watching awareness meditation! Am I doing it wrong? I have noticed the lack of judgement. I have felt gratitude and even peace, but I don’t remember experiencing love, per se.
I called Jacquelyn. I asked if she thought I was doing the awareness-watching-awareness meditation wrong? I have not had the experience of Love in my meditation! Jacquelyn asked about my experience. In my meditation, I noticed that there was an awareness that saw my body as just another object in the room. It didn’t make any judgements, it (awareness) just watched. There is a stillness that seems to be looking. Also there is a sense of allowance, as if everything is acceptable. And peace seems to permeate everything.
Jacquelyn said, “Remember love is not a feeling, it is perfect allowance. It is the blue sky in Gina Lake’s book, ‘In The World, But Not Of It.’ It is the essence of what we are. It is the open acceptance of everything. It is the soft edges around everything.”
I was wondering why I wasn’t having warm feelings or a feeling of personal attachment or deep affection that I associate with love, in my meditation. I looked up the “blue sky” analogy in Gina Lake’s book. “The clear, cloudless sky, like divine nature, is always there, whether there are clouds or not. It is pristine, ever-present, immutable, and untouched by the clouds that pass through it.”
Then I re-read Regina’s love experience as she described it in her tip. “There were different feelings and a few thoughts that occurred during the Love Meditation, but as I concentrated on awareness in a relaxed manner, it was easy to see that I am the love that allowed the experience that occurred during the Love Meditation. There were a few thoughts; there were feelings; I am the openness (love) that allowed them.”
Maybe I am experiencing love during my awareness watching awareness meditation. It’s just not sappy, but I am beginning to recognize it is what I truly am.
I invite you to this same looking today. Today, notice that awareness is love and you are awareness as you practice awareness-watching-awareness.
