Day 2 with Lesson 45. God is the Mind with which I think.
Some twenty years ago I committed to a thirty day stay at Endeavor Academy. It was an intense spiritual experience. I had a mystical Light experience as I was waking up in the morning. I am convinced that this experience was due to the continual immersion in the spiritual culture. I am equally convinced that, even though I was totally immersed in this environment, my mind was immature for the experience. I believe that is why I had a profound mystical experience before I had awakened to a new day, before I had a chance to dress myself with my personal identity. The Holy Spirit was able to facilitate communion with God at a depth within me beyond illusion. ACIM lesson 45 explains “Under all senseless thoughts and mad ideas with which you have cluttered up your mind are the thoughts which you thought with God in the beginning.”
My real thoughts, the thoughts I think with God were available to me because the thoughts of the world were not cognitive in the early hours as I woke up. My beliefs didn’t tell me what was possible with God. I didn’t have to go past all the unreal thoughts that covered the truth in my mind and try and reach the eternal like the workbook lesson asked us to do because I was already in my Right Mind.
Lesson 45 is trying to take us to a state of mind where the thoughts we have are the same ones that are in God’s Mind. Today’s lesson tells us “As you are part of His Mind, so are your thoughts part of His Thoughts.
When we attempt to practice today’s lesson we attempt to leave the unreal and seek for the real because my real thoughts are in my mind and I would like to find the real thoughts that are there in my mind completely unchanged, exactly as they always were. “Here my mind is joined with the Mind of God. Here my thoughts are one with His.”
As Jacquelyn told us in lesson 44, awareness watching awareness is a means to awakening to reality. It conditions our minds so that we can realize aspects of reality which are our real thoughts. The ones in Our Mind.
In order to get where Jesus wants us to go, in order to find reality, we need to be well practiced in our awareness watching awareness. We need to “approach it as you would an altar dedicated in Heaven itself to God the Father and the Son of God.”
I believe I was able to avoid my sense of guilt and unworthiness because I wasn’t able to reject the Holy Spirit’s idea that God was within me. I hadn’t become cognitive yet of the conditioned thoughts that because God is good, I must be guilty and therefore God could not be in me. I didn’t reason I must be separate from God. I was innocent to these types of misperceptions as I awoke with God that morning.
To do this lesson, to reach your real thoughts we must go where they are: in our Holy Mind. We will not allow our judgements of ourselves to preclude us from doing what God would tell us is possible because this possibility rests on the foundation that my God Thoughts are the thoughts which I thought with God in the beginning. They are there in my mind now completely unchanged and they will always be in my mind, exactly as they always were.
