Child of God. Child…innocence…new. To carry the acceptance that you are a child. To carry the acceptance that everything is new and innocent is to allow yourself to turn away from the jaded “knowing” identity that the ego likes to portray. There is a belief that being smart is somehow an advantage. Smart in a way of being savvy, being on top of things, knowing how things should be and how they work. That state of mind is not true, but it’s very painful. It gives you a rush for sure. It gives you a high of an idea that you are “with it” somehow, and you’ve got it under “your” control.

And, in that for many, it’s an addiction to the “knower,” loving to be the “top dog”, to be the one who knows and who runs the show and that others think you are, too. And, it is such a trap because the true knowledge of Love has no knower. The true knowledge of Love is offered by Love itself and is completely not your making. The knowledge of Love is beyond the centuries, beyond comprehension within the world of separation. And by the time that you are available for knowledge, you have already come to a place of humility that says “I really don’t know anything”.

Only Love can lead the way in Truth. And then you accept so much more deeply that you are a Child of God…that you have no need to be on top of anything, because there’s nothing to be on top of. But what hangs out right behind that wanting to be on top is fear. The fear of being found out that your knowing has really no worth. Not because you are not up to par, but because you went down a wrong road. You went on a road of proving, winning , getting and being right. It’s just a painful, painful place. And Love keeps calling to change directions, recover into the Child of God.

Drop in, drop down. To be able to look at any circumstance and recognize I made that up. I made it up and only Love can reconcile what I made up. So, it’s a constant coming back to Love, to not knowing, and accepting that you are the Child of God. You’re innocent. You’re new. And the relationship with the Divine stays in that perfection until you disappear into the Light of God where you truly exist. It’s a painful life to try to prove anything. To carry that addiction…it’s a prison that’s self-made. And all the ego wants to do is convince that you should try it again, that you just missed the mark a little bit and you’re going to do it better next time, you’re going to figure it out next time. And, it never does. Thank God it never does!

You can come back. Only Love is real. Only Love exists. And everything that’s running in the mind is pain and battle. Come home. Come in and become your True Self. Sink into your True Self. In Love. Affirming constantly that only Love is Real and that there is no problem. The problem is thinking that you know something. That’s the only thing in the way of peace, harmony, connection. How can you connect with anyone when you’re living in a false identity that wants to prove worth?

It’s like being in a crowd of people and shoving people out of the way to get to the front of the line. And then you realize that while you were shoving everybody out of the way, there went your opportunity of connection, of Love, of offering Love. The easy way is “I don’t know. I just don’t know”. You don’t know what any situation needs to look like, what it’s for, what’s to come of it. Allowing the mind to be let go and let it unfold in its beauty…in its learning.

In this moment, of just affirming that only Love exists. Nothing else. There’s nothing to latch onto. Nothing to have to have or prove or figure out. Just resting in Love. Allowing. Affirming that this sanctuary is filled with Love because it’s truly all that there is. And the more that you accept and ask “show me that Love. Let me enter into that realm of loving vibration. Teach me how to love”. Paying attention is part of that. And learning to pay attention to what is most helpful.

[sings]

Sister, brother
Pay keen attention
Move very, very slowly To not mistake your path.

Sister, brother
Keep your feet on the ground Be careful with your pride
Be careful with your vanity.

Sister, brother
Go very, very slowly
Be careful with the traps Of life on your path.

Sister, brother
Journey with attention Sincerity in the heart
To walk blessed on this earth.

Pay keen attention. This is not a finger wagging. This is straightforward helpfulness…to pay keen attention. When do you pay keen attention? You pay keen attention to what the thoughts are that are running moment to moment. “What am I believing in? What are my words that I’m speaking that are coming from my mind of my thinking I know something”. Pay keen attention.

What are the words for? Are they to be of service…to love? Or are they to bring a sense of worth to the self? Or to prove something that you have or you are. Pay keen attention. Go very, very slowly so that you’re aware of what you’re offering. Moment to moment.

The high that comes with believing that you personally have an offering that someone else needs. Be very, very careful. Because helpfulness…to be truly helpful is to offer Love, is to offer service. But, there’s no high. There is an awareness of connection. There is Love through the offering. But as soon as the mind in its trickiness says “I’m going to get something out of this. They’re going to think I’m really…boy, I’m talented. I’m smart. I know spiritual stuff”.

Whatever it seems to be. It’s to be very aware of that ego addiction to being the knower in whatever way that it comes out. And it’s so easy to be the knower. It really is because all you have to do is find others that you see as messed up or not engaged in some way that you think they should be engaged. Whatever the assessment is, it’s made up, and it’s really the insanity of the mind that is revealing itself in that way. Letting go and pay keen attention with sincerity in the heart. To be blessed on the path of Love.

Here I Am

Declaring the love within my heart
Here I want to affirm the Love of our Divine Mother. I’m here to learn to Love eternally
Here in this school of Love,
I sit in gratitude to all Divine Beings.
Within the Light of our Divine Mother
Forever I will praise the Truth of all Divine Beings And never to aggrandize myself.
I’m small with the knowledge
And the size of Love that I’m aware of.
But within this Light, I enter into
The great Love of all creation.
To Love together with all beloveds,
All of us together, praising God.
Here within this power, we give thanks
To our Divine Mother and Father.
The healing that is waiting to be received,
Is here within the heart
As we give Love and thanks
For all that we do receive.

We must give thanks. Not only for the healing, but for the great gifts of Truth that leads us in every moment and blesses everything all the time. Only Love.

Tripping Over Joy

What is the difference
Between your experience of existence And that of a saint?

The saint knows
That the spiritual path
Is a sublime chess game with God,

And that the Beloved
Has just made such a Fantastic Move

That the saint is now continually
And bursting out in Laughter
And saying “I surrender”
Because there’s nothing else to do.

Whereas, my dear,
I am afraid you still look and think

That you have a thousand serious moves.
[Hafiz]

Serious moves. Finding that place of resting in God, trusting that God’s movement within the world is serving you and perfectly orchestrated for your learning, and not looking at it with a seriousness that says “I have to figure all this out because I have to get back in control”. When all that Love is asking of the saint and of the learner is to recognize that it’s all perfectly orchestrated and that you can laugh. That you can laugh at what you may be thinking. You can laugh at how things are unfolding. What does it mean to accept that there’s no good or bad, there’s no right or wrong, there’s no light or dark? How can you not laugh if there’s no good or bad?

Once you identify something as bad or wrong, you have to adjust and be with it in the manner in which you think it needs to be held. But if everything is perfect for your learning, then how can you not just laugh and say ok, show me the way because this is the way of Love, and I’m held.

Tripping Over Joy

It’s totally possible, (of course it is) to be at peace. To be trusting that you really, really, really don’t know what anything is supposed to look like. The form of it, whatever it is, is not “it”. The form is just a shell that you have identified as good and bad and right and wrong and…. For some to have rain is to be automatically upset. Looking at the rain and saying “it’s depressing. I can’t go outside. We can’t do this. I can’t do that. My hair will go wanky”. Whatever it is, it’s made up. Completely. Or someone is behaving the way that is not liked. And, you believe that you have to change it. There’s nothing to judge. There’s just nothing to judge. “Is this where would you have me be? How can I serve? What is most helpful? I don’t know”. And in that, life becomes a movement that is tripping over joy.

I have mentioned several times that when I was in healing that I was called to go sit with a teacher that was in the valley visiting. And the only thing I remember him saying was laughing at your house burns down…he’d laugh really loud. You split up, get a divorce, he laughed. You lose your job, he laughed. And I took that and I was with it for months. To enter into the energy of that possibility that you could be free of the form and go beyond the form and touch into the joy into the blessings that were always there. Always. Months and months and months of inner study, inner questioning. Not questioning God, questioning the insanity that I carried of believing in the right and wrong and the good and bad. Learning.

The saint knows that the spiritual path is a sublime chess game with God.

If you see your life as a chess game with God, all you’re doing is waiting for the next move. And, you’re learning how to play. You’re watching the moves that God makes and the guidance is all there to teach you what that move means and how that move came to be, and what’s really here. But without that inquiry, without that awareness that the form has no meaning…the meaning is all coming from the mind that sees the form, judges it as a like or a dislike through personal meaning from YOUR past and reacts to the form as if the form has reality.

But your Divine Spirit is not stuck in those forms. The forms change constantly, and the only thing is that if you give them meaning, then you either suffer through the meaning that you give them or you are at peace through the God’s Truth that you accept. And you learn, that’s the key.

It is a blessed discovery to accept that no one can suffer loss except by their own decision…by your own decision. No one can suffer loss. How can that be? Everything that you see is coming through a filter of the belief of scarcity, of lack and the belief that there’s a right and a wrong and a good and a bad and that’s already been established by your ego mind and you’ve carried it for lifetimes. But if you can open and recognize that there really is nothing to lose, you are whole and complete and nothing of the Truth of you can be taken from you. It can’t be altered by anything. No one can do anything to you. And no one can take anything from you that is of Truth.

So what is it to live in that recognition that there’s only loss by decision? What if you stop yourself in a moment where you think something’s lost or something’s missing? And, you stop and pray to see it differently…that it can’t be true, that you cannot be in loss, and that something within your mind has to make an adjustment or you’re going to stay in pain. And, it isn’t God’s Will at all for there to be anything other than Peace.

No one can suffer loss except by his own decision.

No one suffers pain except by his choice. No one can grieve except by the belief that something is missing. The idea of grieving…let’s say somebody moves out the area that you’re close to physically and that you have a heart connection with. And, they are moving. And, your instant reaction is “I’m bereft. I’ll be without”. Because the body is so believed, that you believe that your relationship is based on physicality. It has nothing to do with physicality. Physicality would mean that you would have to be with every single person that you care about all the time in order to believe that you were in a state of Love. And Love has nothing to do with physicality.

Can you step out of the mind that believes that and open to the reality that Love has no limitation? The freedom in that place is so profound because it actually opens you to the Truth of Love. When you were in the physical belief that you have to be close by, it was a need from the body’s emotions, rather than the actual Truth of Love, the heart connection, the oneness. And this Beloved who is moving out of the area…imagine that you begrudge them moving. That you have a sadness, that you have an upset because they’re not going to be physically with you to prove you are Loved.

So, you would put your Love aside in the name of grief, in the name of belief in loss, the belief that you will be bereft without their physical nearness and that you don’t want them to go. And, in that, you’re basically saying “I believe that my not wanting you to go is Love. My grief over your leaving is what I consider to be Love”. And, it is NOT Love. It is the need of the ego to get what it wants. To believe that something is missing and what it needs in order to be okay. It’s an old agreement with bodies that believe in separation. That being separate from another body means that you are separate when that’s not possible in the Truth of Love. It’s not possible. And, what gift would there be in speaking to this beloved who was moving and making sure that they know that you’re miserable, which is a ploy that the ego likes a lot. “I miss you. I miss this. I miss that. And, I am without”.

Imagine that beloved having the courage to go beyond and to take the sacred teachings and be able to say “this can’t be true. God has promised that I cannot have loss, that there is no separation. So, how could it be that I am experiencing a separation when there can’t be any by God’s word”? Are you willing to question the validity of your mind? What you’re feeling and how you’re reacting? Are you willing to ask and to find the way? So, when you do ask and Spirit says take this teaching: “ I have given everything all the meaning that it has”…. If this is the Truth, that you have given everything in what you see all the meaning that it has, “I am inside out. I’m upside down”. You are believing in loss when there is no loss. You are believing that you have been jilted, You have been treated unfairly, you have been abandoned, you have been rejected. All of it, the refusal to accept the mind’s insanity.

And, all the while, you could be in celebration. You could be tripping over joy, because you would be bursting into laughter and saying “I surrender! I surrender what I know because I just entered into an area that has no Truth to it. And I want the Truth. I want to remember that I cannot be without. And that nothing is happening to me that I am not asking for, for my own learning”. Not asking for to be punished, but for your learning. Is your prayer “Show me the way? Show me what’s most helpful”. And, if that is your prayer, then everything that’s showing up is for your remembering. And, how beautiful and how perfect.

But, the other side of it is, when you’re miserable, it’s a self-made punishment for whatever reason that you believe the punishment is justified or valid. Mostly, it’s just out of habit. And, the habit says, “if I have this habit, it must be real. And if I have this habit, it must be right, because I’ve had it for so long. I believe in it. I’ve put my faith in it”. And, all the while, this is just the schoolroom of learning.

The schoolroom of learning. The ego identity says, “love is my enemy”. And, nobody on the surface really believes that, except that we turn away from what is real for the illusion out of habit and out of the arrogance of knowing, and out of the fear of the unknown. That’s why faith is so essential. But, the ego doesn’t buy faith. Certainly not faith in God. It believes in its own faith that what it already knows is right. But, with love as the enemy, cruelty becomes god. If love is the enemy then cruelty has to raise its head and try to be in control, try to be right about whatever. It’s all fear. But the cruelty of it is the insistence on being right.

And, while that’s going on, this insistence on being right and doing it the way your used to doing it, whatever it is, the cruelty that comes up is that you want to be right so bad that it doesn’t matter who you step on. It doesn’t matter what the end result is, you just want to get back in control, not realizing that it’s such a painful, painful place. And that it separates so deeply…not really separates, but the sense of it is “I’m separate, because I’m in my own battle”. When you are in your own battle, your own mind, your own thinking, you can’t help but feel separate. It’s a place of pain. That’s not any way connected with going within and connecting with the Divine, or contemplation, meditation, prayer.

Those are all inward expressions and connections. But that’s not what the problem is. The problem is that you separate yourself in the name of being right, in the name of knowing. And, there’s no remedy except to recognize you’re thinking that you know something and you are making your own little landscape that is just very painful and always familiar. Immediately, the idea of being right is…you can feel safe. Don’t be fooled by it, because it doesn’t bring safety. It brings you a recognition of something that you have already developed…when you’re right. And there’s a strange relationship with the power in being right.

It’s almost as if you won the race, just momentarily you won the race. That feeling of crossing the finish line ahead of everybody and being the victor. That’s what the wanting to be right feels like. It gives you a false sense of winning and being safe. But, being right separates also. It’s all about winning and whoever crosses that finish line and wins is dancing by themselves.

In a conversation not very long ago, we were talking about running and racing. Being a runner. And I said, “the most beautiful thing that I’ve ever seen at a race was when someone fell down and the runner that was actually going to win stopped and helped them up”. That’s so beautiful! That place of offering Love was a state of being of true Love, of helpfulness. There’s nothing wrong with being the winner of the race, but whatever the intention is…if it’s just to win, it’s going to be a solitary place. Nothing wrong (or right) with winning at all in those circumstances, but, it’s paying attention to the intention. What is it for? And really choosing constantly to not know and let a new world open up. A new world.

One of the main teachings that expands that into everything is:

You are responsible for what you see and feel.

You are responsible for what you see. You’re not condemned for what you see, but everything you see and how you see it comes from your own mind. It isn’t coming from anybody else doing anything. It isn’t coming from anybody else’s decisions. It’s coming from what you believe in. And that’s where your healing is, is to examine what you’re believing. This, the ego wants no part of. No part. Because the ego wants to convince that what it knows is pretty darn important and right. Except, that you don’t feel any love. You don’t connect, except in your own mind, what you’re believing in. And so Love keeps calling, keeps calling.

I’m afraid you think you have a thousand serious moves.

There is a certain amount of taking care of business in the world. How do you take care of business in the broader sense and still stay present and realizing that this is all unfolding in God’s harmony? You take one step at a time. And you don’t know what’s going to happen next. You just take care of the step that is here and now. And you don’t allow your mind to have a concept, a plan, or an outcome other than God’s Will for you is peace and joy. Whatever it’s going to look like, you are going to be resting in peace and joy, fulfilling your calling. To offer Love, to be Love, to serve Love. It becomes easy because you’re not the planner. You’re not the one making decisions because you never make decisions on your own. You decide that the friend who moved away is leaving you, well, that can be your decision but, it’s a decision of separation. It’s a decision that probably is very familiar; that every time somebody left in the past, you believed that they were doing something to you personally. And now you have the opportunity of really transforming everything you have believed about abandonment that you thought was true.

And you stay with the Truth when the Beloved friend physically leaves, your calling is to hold for the two of you (at the very least the two of you) the Truth. That you cannot leave Love. That you cannot be separated from anyone, because Love is the only Truth, and in the Truth you are One. Are you offering them Love? Are you offering them non-judgment, are you offering them blessings for their journey that may have a different form than yours? When you are there, in that love, holding them for their journey…it doesn’t matter what the journey is for them. It’s not your business, it’s not your business to have an opinion about “they could be doing a lot better than that. They shouldn’t be moving there. They should be doing this. They should be doing that”. Nope. That insanity is insane.

This is the arrogance of the ego that says “I know something. And I definitely know what somebody else’s journey should look like”. That is such a place of loneliness. It is a place of affirming for yourself that you are separate, that you are without, and that you are adamantly sticking to it, because it’s what you know. There is a certain payoff in this belief because the ego, in its audacity, gets a high from mulling over what the other one should be doing. There’s a high in it. There’s a sense of superiority, control. “I know what their life should look like. And, it’s very rude that they don’t ask me”. And the only place that there is is to step back and realize you’re just making it up.

You don’t know what they need for their journey. You don’t know what their journey needs to look like. You don’t know. But, all that you’re there to learn is that you can’t be separated from them at all because it has nothing to do with the body. Your Heart has the capacity, your being has totality of capacity to be in oneness with every Beloved. If you will allow the Holy Spirit to show you the Truth of Love. This Beloved who has moved away, or moved somewhere, they have given you a gift of learning. They have given you the opportunity of learning something that you have not known…in Truth.

So, imagine that you would drop the opinions of what you think somebody else should be doing with their life, or where they should be living, or how their world should look, and offer them Love. Offer them blessings. Offer them the exalted state of holding them as the Light of God no matter where they are or what they’re doing, because what they’re doing or where they are is really none of your business. It’s God’s business. Spirit is moving them where they will be. Or, their ego is moving them, but they have a learning. They’re here to learn, just as everyone is here to learn.

The selfishness of the ego that says “I need you to be around, so that I can be in charge of something or knowing something or that you’re available for me”…. All that is painfully untrue. There is nothing more beautiful than to be in union, celebrating someone’s journey where they need to be, accepting that you cannot be separated in the Truth of Love. You can be separated in your ego mind because when you’re in your mind and you think that you’re lacking or you think that somebody’s betraying you or thinking that somebody is not being nice to you or whatever it is. It’s untrue. No one can betray you.

You’re whole and complete in the Light of God. You cannot be betrayed. But if you choose to believe that you are betrayed, then that element will run your life and hold you in that imprisonment of your upside down mind, because it’s just not true. “Sister, brother be very, very careful to not mistake your path. Be careful with your pride. Be careful with your vanity”. The pride and the vanity are all part of that scenario of thinking you know. Even when you’re not aware of the pride, pride says “I’m the one who knows! I’m the one who has the license for judgment. I have the license for opinions. I’ve earned that right to my opinions and my judgment”.

How did you earn the right to judgment and opinions? The only way that anybody earns the right to judgment and opinions is through fear, through the belief of battle, and the belief of self-protection, and the belief of separation. None of those are true. So you have this opportunity of offering Love to a beloved who you wanted to make them guilty for not physically being in your presence. And you have this opportunity of learning how to truly Love and how to expand your Divine Spirit to include everyone, and that you can’t be separate from anyone. It’s not possible.

Conflict must be resolved; not evaded, set aside or hidden by deceit.

It must be resolved. If you have a sense of conflict within you, use it…let the Holy Spirit use it. If there’s a conflict, if the energy of conflict comes up, that means you are believing that there’s conflict, and the first place to go is “help me! Help me! I’m believing in conflict, and I cannot give it my own interpretation. I can’t let it be hidden by deceit, my own deceit of what I think it means. I have to ask. What is this conflict about? What am I believing in about this conflict? Why am I feeling conflicted”? You’re not asking yourself, you’re asking the Divine, “show me please”! If you ask yourself, it’s like being in an insane asylum and giving yourself the keys. Doesn’t work. Your ego can’t open deceit. It depends on deceit. It is deceitful by its nature.

There was a teaching that came years ago. It was a beloved that was explaining that they couldn’t stand lying. Liars…couldn’t stand lying. I almost started laughing, because it was so serious. And I said, “Well, then, you can’t stand anybody, because everybody’s lying”. If you don’t know the Truth of Love, you’re in a lie. If you’re believing in the illusion of separation and lack, believing in your own mind and believing that you think you know, it’s all a lie to yourself.

So, to make the statement that you can’t stand liars; then you have to look in the mirror because the liar is looking back at you. And, I wasn’t saying that about anyone, it’s not about anyone. It’s that the ego lies. That’s all it knows how to do. It doesn’t tell the Truth because it doesn’t know Truth. It has no relationship to Truth. God is truth. Ego is the liar. That’s all that it is. It’s a lie that you’re going to die. You can’t die. You’re the Life and the Light of God. There is no death. You can’t sin. No one can sin. You can make a mistake. That’s it. But the ego knows nothing but deception. And that is essential to realize that the distain for others and their journey is a condemnation that has no reality. None at all.

The illusion has no connection to Love, has no connection to anything other than “I want to be right”. And, even though you can say the ego is a liar, that means that everybody is a liar, everybody believes in a deception, and everybody is mistaken. They’re not sinners. They’re not condemned. All have believed in a mistaken identity. And to awaken from a mistaken identity is the gift of Creation. It doesn’t make you different. It actually affirms your sameness completely. There’s nothing to be unequal in. It’s all Divine equality of Love. That’s all. And where is that…to forgive yourself from the lies of the past, from the misperceptions of the past is essential for sure. But there’s no condemnation. It’s just the realization that only Love is real.

The world you see attests to the fearful nature of the self-image that you’ve made.

That’s all that you’re seeing. The fearful nature of what you believed you were. It’s being shown to you in everything that you think you see. In everything that you think you perceive. In everything you react to. What’s in the way is being shown to you. If you project it onto somebody or something else, then, it just makes it more difficult. It makes it more confusing and complicated, which the ego loves.

Tripping over joy, because it’s a chess game. That’s all that you’re playing is a game of God, “Where do you want me next? Where do you want me to move on the board? Where is it most helpful? I don’t know. How do I look at this chess piece? How do I see it differently as my friend instead of my enemy? How do I change and release the belief that I’m in competition with anybody?”

There’s no competition. Feel that edge of wanting to be competitive. That is such a hard place to live, to be competitive. And, once you enter into competition, it’s painful, just painful. Because then, in competition you have to see everybody as your enemy. You have to be the winner. It’s a painful place. Can’t see love, can’t feel the love, can’t embrace the love and relax and rest in it as God asks you to. Everything that you see are just images that your mind is putting out. And in that, is where all the healing is. We get the picture all the time. What are you seeing? What are you believing in? How do you see what’s around you? And to embrace what is here now, and let it be its perfection. It’s always perfect. Always. There’s nothing other than the Truth of Love.

Let true vision be given to you as you let go of what you think you know.

That wanting true vision, it’s right here; just waiting for the YES, show me! And, when it opens, it’s so spectacular. Not because it’s wow, wow, wow. But because you can feel the balance, the harmony, the inspiration, the beauty, the resting. It’s all here in your “YES, show me! Teach me! And, let me recognize that I don’t know anything about anything. But, you can show me”. Accepting that there’s nothing outside…ever. It’s never outside. It’s never somebody else. It’s never somebody else moving away. It means nothing. It doesn’t mean nothing because you’re saying get out of my life or anything…no. It doesn’t mean anything because your heart is full and you’re in connection with everyone and it doesn’t matter where they are in the physicality of distance or closeness at all.

The belief that others can make decisions for you and that you’re a victim…it is such a funny place to be a victim and to have the arrogance of thinking that you know something. It’s not a funny place, ha ha. It’s a strange place because they seem so not connected and yet the arrogance of the victim can be really a strong. You tap into familiar anger, resentment, there’s all of the aggressiveness of the arrogance that held as “poor me, I’m the one that’s always without”. But none of it is true. Absolutely none of it’s true. Love is pouring, pouring, pouring all the time and you are ALL THAT IS GOD. You’re the innocence of God, you’re the beauty of God.

But if your mind is in its knowing, you can’t touch it. You can’t relate to the Truth of you. You can’t meet it, because your mind is running the show. It can just be let go. Surrendered. Truly surrendered…ending conflict because you must remain as God created you. While the transitory states of illusion move and you consciously choose to not attach to them. The forms will continue to show up and change all the time and you just don’t attach to them. You don’t attach to them with your made up meaning.

Something as simple as sitting in a chair, but if there’s a “me” here that would say “my chair”. Once it’s “my chair”…ownership, all bets are off because it’s the land of pain and suffering. MINE…it will turn into pain and suffering. The idea of “my chair”…ownership, will always end up in a sense of betrayal. Because, you can’t own anything. You are whole and complete as the beingness, the Light, the Spirit of God. And this chair can have no ownership. It’s borrowed. It’s a blessing to use. It has nothing to do with ownership.

And anything that you think is yours, including relationships, it’s just a place of pain. It’s a place of pain because you have an expectation that it means something to own a relationship. And that you have bragging rights or condemnation rights or whatever it is that you think. And, it means nothing. There’s no ownership. Not at all. Letting go, surrendering all relationships. The chair, the roles that everybody took in your life, whatever those roles were. They all have to be surrendered into the Hands of God to be free. And those statements of Truth…the ego wants to say, “I’ll be without. I’ll be without”.

NO! You will actually open to everything, because you won’t be an identity with the belief in needs that are nothing. You are already everything and your journey is to travel into that exquisite place within and find the Divine within. And to open into that blessed peaceful place of wholeness, That you have nothing missing; Nothing to get, nothing to prove, nothing to try to hold onto.

How many times have I used the example of a pie. There’s only so many slices of a pie. It’s the same thing. It’s the same thing with a chair. It’s the same thing with a relationship. Roles that you’ve given to others that you expect them to behave in a certain way with those roles. It’s totally fabricated and has nothing to do with Love. Love is being free, that somebody else is sitting in this chair. Hooray if somebody else is sitting in this chair. What a blessing! They get to sit in the chair at some other time and they’ve sat in the chair. It’s perfect! The lack of ownership is essential. Because everything that you think you own… “own”…is slavery. You’re a slave to it and you believe that it is a part of your ownership and that you are the master of owning. That’s why there’s pride in ownership, because the pride says, “look at me. I have more than someone else does or I have enough”, or whatever it is. Instead of the divine equality that God always provides and there’s nothing missing and nothing to get. All your clothes burn up. Okay! Guess it’s time for a new pair of pants. There’s no ownership. It doesn’t matter. You’re whole and complete in your divinity, in your holiness, in your perfection in the Love that YOU ARE. Completely perfect.

And all of those thousand serious moves that you still believe in can be laughed at. The words nothing to prove…I know they are said all the time. But, when you really enter into nothing to prove, it really means that it’s a dead end. It’s a dead end if you are trying to prove something, you’re going to be in pain. Because it is a painful place that the ego takes you, because you can’t ever prove your worth. Your worth is intrinsic and nothing on this outside of accomplishments means anything about you. Are you in service of Love?

Are you in the generosity of the beloved moving someplace else and holding them in celebration of their journey? Or are you turning it around…”it’s about ME! I need this. I want this. I…I…I…I…I”! That’s the painful place. “Me”. Open to the we. Open to the Oneness. Allow the Reality of Love to teach the road of unity and union. It’s the great gift. “Show me the way because I cannot perceive my own best interest. I cannot. There’s no way that I can. I never have and I never will. Show me the way. Show me the way of Love”. That’s all, only Love.

Chris Celine © 2017

Eternal innocence. The word innocence means different things to different beloveds. Innocence is devoid of struggle. Innocence is devoid of right and wrong, good or bad, light or dark. Innocence is not attached to time and not afraidofdeath. Allofthisisinnocenceinthetruesensethatinyourinnocent Self, all is pure and Holy and has no attachment to the made-up world of levels, degrees and differences. All of that has been made to keep you in fear. The fear comes from the belief in right and wrong and good and bad.

Every time there is a decision made of “I like or don’t like this”…. The way that this shows up, this form, this circumstance, “I like it this way”…you’re hooked. You’re hooked in a false perception that there is a wrong or right way and that you are the decider of that right or wrong way. All that it does, is take you into fear, because once you make the decision that there is a right way, that “this is good and something else isn’t”, you’re on a roller coaster. You have to hold on to what you identified with. You have to be sure that it works out because if it doesn’t, then, somehow you’re responsible and you’re giving it all the meaning that it has. You’ve taken it over. You’re owning it and there can’t be any ownership of a form, and that’s what it’s based on. It looks like this, and if it looks like this, and you think you “know” what it means.

But the only thing that is running at all is the inner intention. The inner intention to either offer Love, or to promote fear or hatred. Those are the only two options. There is no good or bad. The form could be someone standing upside down. It doesn’t matter. How would you know what that’s for and what that means, except the meaning that you give it? And the intention behind being turned upside down…you don’t know. You don’t know what anybody has to walk through for healing, for remembering. And you don’t know what you need to walk through. And that’s where the Love just leads. And if you allow Love to lead, you can be at peace. You can trust the universe instead of trying to make a separate decision of protection and defense.

To really be at peace is to not have any attachment to outcomes, because everything can be used for the remembering of love. And what if you wanted a different outcome and that took away the opportunity for everyone to learn? Learning is directed by the Spirit of Love. And to allow that direction is to be just following, asking and allowing that everything is in perfection. Always in your heart if you allow it to be given for the purpose of learning.

Getting and learning do not know each other. Getting is the belief that there isn’t enough and that you have an outcome (through form) that is going to give you something. Learning receives everything for its Divine Purpose and allows it to unfold, allows it to just reveal itself. And, what will the learning be? It comes with the YES, I am willing, whatever it is. And to realize so deeply that the Spirit of Love, the power of the universe is totally aware of what is most helpful for you. Totally aware of what circumstance, what situations, who…everything is perfectly orchestrated for your learning if you allow it. And, that is the key…to allow, to invite.

Take this life and use it for remembering.

It’s the only purpose. And in all of that surrender, the surrender that we cannot know anyone else’s journey, what they need, what anything should look like. It’s all perfect. And that “I don’t know” is your strongest friend. The “I don’t know” is your ally to Love. Through the “I don’t know, I don’t know how to look at this. I don’t know what it’s for. I don’t know what it means. I don’t know what’s needed, but I’m here. You are saying YES, show me the way”. And in that, that distinction, that joining is your dearest friend because it will open the door for your healing. It will heal you of the erroneous perception that you know.

How can we know? You have lived in a trance and in that trance there’s no Truth, there’s only a made up circumstance that’s ready to be unraveled. And the Light breaks it all apart. Invite the Light. Invite the Light that you are.

In this moment, in the innocence, the innocence that you are, the innocence that you offer, the innocence that glows within you, the innocence of the universe…. In that innocence, affirming that there is only Love. Only Love. To really accept that there is only Love that nothing else is actually in existence. How many times are you going to let your mind have its way to make up a world when the world of innocence and Love is yours, and it is you? To stop the wheel of suffering is God’s Grace. There is nothing in the Power of the universe, the Power of God that has any hint of judgment, of wrath, of revenge. The Truth of Love, the power of the Universe, the power of God can’t even see the illusion that everyone in this world believes is actual fact and reality. It can’t even be seen, because it’s not true, it’s not Love. And, how many hours, how many years, how many lifetimes has everyone spent worried about judgment of being judged? And the fear of being judged only comes from the belief that you have, that judgment is valid, that judgment is righteous somehow. Maybe it’s just a clever entertainment, something to do. And yet, it’s not of God. It doesn’t even exist. And it’s revered as legitimate.

To surrender all judgment. To no longer tolerate it is essential. To no longer tolerate the past and the habits of the past that have been miserable and misery making. To accept “I don’t know”. And then, to find that in the not knowing is the Grace of peace that you never have to try to prove your worth again. That you never will defend yourself again. That you will never have to protect anything or worry about anything because Love is all there is. The True Love, not what the world has made with the name of love, which is possession, ownership, fear, habit, and an avoidance of God. Because, when you meet the Divine within, there will be no room for ownership, possessions…they will mean nothing.

Invite the Divine. It’s where you live. It’s what YOU ARE. It’s meeting your Self with a capital “S.” And when you meet your Self, you meet every Beloved in all innocence. No ownership. No possession. The word “my” disappears. Where do “we” go? We disintegrated into Love. Only Love remains.

In this moment, affirming and willing to affirm day after day after day, moment- to- moment, affirming this universe is all Love. Nothing else exists. I AM that Love. I AM that, ONE with all creation, the YES of the Heart. The Heart is beating strongly because the Heart wants the remembering. The Heart is the center of God. Let it burst. Let it melt. Let it break. Surrendering the Heart into the Truth of Love. There is only one presence here. It is the Life Force of God, which is all Love. And within this Life force, we live and move and breathe as One in union, with no threat from a perceived difference. Only Love.

As we have all walked the journey or are still walking for some, strength and courage are called for because the fear of being without what you know can seem to be a threat. You’ve depended on what you know in all of its pain and suffering for lifetime after lifetime. And now is the time of learning to trust the Power of the universe. The Power that is the true Creator of life and now, rejoin that oneness.

[sings]

Oh my Father give me strength Give me courage on this road. To be a child of yours on earth And tread the path

The Master showed.
Oh my Mother
Show me Love,
Give me comfort to be aware,
To obey these sacred teachings.
It was your son who showed the way. Oh my Master, your compassion

Can see through this pain.
For it was you who came to earth To release us from these chains. Oh my Father, I’m yours,
Give me comfort to be aware. Send your angels to receive me
In this sacred path of the Son.
Oh my Father and my Mother
Who rule the world of Love,
Send your angels to receive me Through the gateway of pure Love.

….
Send your angels to receive me through the gateway of pure love.

This is not an asking for something that is over-the-top. This is the Truth, that in the angelic realm, which is just one of the many realms of beings…in the angelic realm and in all realms of Love, every being…will guide you. They will all take your hand and lead you. But, if you think you know, you’re not available, because you can’t know what and how that might occur. It’s just trusting…in all the Love and all its manifestations, all of its benevolence, all of its Grace.

There is a teaching that runs though many paths …that you can’t be a knower and that you’re being called to get into the boat. You’re called to get into the boat so that it can take you down the river and you realize that you’re not in charge of the boat, of the river, the learning. You’re just there to receive and allow that the boat is moving through form, through illusion of form. It’s moving and the more that you can keep giving everything you see into the Hands of God…just everything. Empty yourself into Love.

It’s here, it’s here
The small boat is here.
It’s the love, the light.
This small boat comes
To take us back to Love.
It opens the path to the Divine.
The Blessed Mother is guiding the small boat-allow it. I surrender, I surrender
To the Will of the Divine.
In my Heart, I must remember
I am the kingdom of Love.

….

The Moon is Also Busy

I bow to God in gratitude
And I find the moon is also busy Doing the same.

I bow to God in great happiness,
And I learn from where the suns
And the children
And my Heart
All borrow their light.

I bow to the Friend in deep reverence
And discover a marvelous secret carried in the air:

This whole Universe is just as blessed
And divinely crazed as I,
And just as lost in this Wonderful Holy Dance.

My dear,
After such a long, long journey, God has made another soul Free!

Now all every teacher wants to do Is open a beautiful tavern
Where this Sacred Wine
Of God’s truth, knowledge and Love Is forever and ever

Freely offered to you.

O bow to God in gratitude.
And some day
You will see how
The moon is also busy doing the same. [Hafiz]

….

How will you see that the moon is doing the same? It’s by bowing in gratitude. It’s actually cause and effect. As you surrender your heart, your being, your intention, your life. As you give it back to God …in the world of illusion, the surrender to God is held as something fearful. The ego mind says that surrender is losing. That is how it’s held in the world, as when you lose a war you’ve surrendered. But, this is not losing, if you want to call it that. This is coming back to where you actually live. This is your true life.

Why is the word “funeral” used so much in spiritual teachings except for the purpose of making it clear that when you believe in your own autonomy, your own mind, you own suffering, your own death…you are bereft from believing you are not one with God? Bereft from believing you are separate from being the joy and wholeness of the true life. It’s what you believe you are. The self- made “you” has no resemblance to the magnificent being God created. The magnificent being that you truly are, is waiting to be remembered and will continue to wait until you do.

I bow to God in great happiness,
And I learn from where the suns
And the children
And my Heart
All borrow their light.

The mysteries of the universe are so magnificent that it’s all here and waiting for you to join…all here. And how do you possibly join in these Divine mysteries and truths? It is truly through “I don’t know”. Why is it so fearful to admit that you don’t know? What is it that has been convinced that says “I’m not going there? I’m attached to my knowing”. And yet every time a Beloved steps into that “not knowing” and opens their being to that beautiful open space, there is always awareness (at least a glimmer) of Divine Grace. There’s always Love that is directing you and it’s so beautiful. To be in that perfectly beautiful, perfectly peaceful vibration of Love where you truly exist.

Just imagine that you would never have a worry again. That you would not be in angst over what you think you know and decisions that you’re making. It’s all surrendered and everything becomes so clear, so easy, because you’re where you’re supposed to be. You’re where you truly exist in the Light of God. Everyone who has walked this earth as a body has experienced the wrath of the ego that battled from the very beginning of incarnation…struggling, battling, trying to prove, trying to forge out a spot for yourself, whatever. And it’s all perceived as the hard work of trying to prove your worth. It all is a Lie! In the Truth of Love there is absolutely nothing to prove.

YOU ARE worth by nature. You were created as Light and innocence and perfection by God, it is just your natural Self. That’s what you truly are. You are eternal. You are a light-being of Love. None of this…you can’t take any of what was just said and make sense of it with the mind that has nothing but limitation. You can’t imagine the expansion of your being. You can’t imagine the space that your being is actually in. All this beauty, all this Light that you truly are is just right there, just beyond your remembering. It’s being held for you until you’re ready to remember. But, it’s within you. It’s the Eternal Light and meeting it is in the not knowing because through willingness a space opens and you can be shown and offered the way.

I bow to the Friend in deep reverence
And discover a marvelous secret carried in the air:

This whole Universe is just as blessed And divinely crazed as I….

This whole universe is all Love and Love is calling you to join in that Divine dance. But who knows how to enter into the Divine dance unless you allow the guidance to take you. So beautifully will it take you.

… [O]pen a beautiful tavern
Where this Sacred Wine
Of God’s Truth, Knowledge and Love Is forever and ever
Freely offered to you.

It’s being offered all the time, because God wants your happiness. Just your Joy. It’s very simple. Peace and happiness are the same thing. Love, peace and happiness are all the same thing. There’s no worry, there’s no difficulty, there’s no other, there’s no comparisons, there’s no knowing. How can you have a judgment without knowing? You can’t. Depends on you believing that what you know is right and that some other behavior or perception is somehow wrong. And that’s where all the pain is. Because as soon as you believe you have some knowing of somebody, of something about somebody, you’ve separated yourself from Love. You just affirmed “we’re separate. You are that and I am this. I have my idea of me and I have my idea of you”. And that’s what you are holding and that’s where all the pain is. There’s nothing to battle with anybody.

Behavior doesn’t mean anything. Behavior is a cry for Love. That’s all that it is. If it’s seen as something threatening, there’s pain. There’s caution. That’s all painful. But in the Truth of Love, none of that is reality. How can you accept that there are no differences and comparisons in reality when your whole world is built on comparisons and differences? You count on it in order to believe that you are safe and believe that you know. And that means, also, that you’re safe. What is being safe? That’s the strangest thing. Even the idea of safety is made up. It’s always about the body. But, it’s vague. Every time you enter into fear of not being safe, and you have a reaction that says, “Oh! I’m not in enough control. I’m not in enough judgment. I need to be on top of this, whatever it is. Or I need to be cautious about something”, which is still trying to be on top of it. Every time that occurs, it reinforces that there’s something that’s threatening.

But what is it? What is the threat that you’re believing in? It’s vague. It’s always vague. It seems like it’s right here and something is being assaulted within you like your worth, your honor, your way, your idea, whatever. But, it isn’t really that. It’s a vagueness that is behind it. The vagueness is “I’m threatened”, but the threat is like “I’m going to die”, because it’s vague. The ego keeps the vagueness there, so that it seems really ominous.

You get a letter in the mail from the power company and it says “you missed your payment”. If you have a reaction to that of fear, of upset, you’re not only in the past believing that you’re threatened by a letter, but the vagueness of what is the unsafety that the threat…is far beyond the letter that you’re late with your electric bill. The vagueness says you’re in danger of upsetting the applecart of your belief of how things need to be. You are in danger of not being in enough control. You should have known that that date was what it was, and you should have paid that on time.

So you have failed. You have failed by not remembering a date or putting your paperwork aside. What you’re feeling is not aligned with what that power bill says. You believe that this is an actual threat of some kind. You don’t say, “Oh, I’ll check this” (this is a learning). No, it’s a “real” thing, it’s a worry that comes over and the worry says, “you’re not in control. You don’t have things aligned like you should have”. Or you drop into the other side of the illusion and defy the Power Co. as an enemy that you rail against. And, of course, guilt and shame attach. Feel the vagueness of it, because the vagueness is behind it saying, “this really means something”. And, every single time you have a worry or you have a reaction to something that you think is out of line with how things should be, it’s the vagueness that is running the show. The vague fear that you are actually, really in danger.

Now, if you really looked at what you’re believing in, it would fall apart, because the meaning of being late for power bill…is coming from your mind …it has no real anything. Who said you were late? What is the power? What are you attached to? What is it that you believe is happening? Nothing is happening, but you’re attached to this and you feel threatened. You could place it with anything. You could call it anything.

I used to be terrified of the phone ringing that it would be something that I had done wrong somehow. This is a vagueness that runs. It’s an illness that runs all the time, until you’re finally willing to say “this cannot be the Truth of Love. This is not of God. Why am I making these things up? Why do I want to suffer by having a belief in the rules of the world that mean nothing”? God didn’t create those. They’re made up. Does that mean that you don’t pay the power bill? No. But, it isn’t a place of pain. It isn’t a place of worry. It isn’t a place of shame! What if somebody comes to the door and you just got a late notice on your power bill posted on your door?

Do you have the peace and courage to say “I just got a late notice in my power bill. I forgot to pay it”. Can you express that? If you can’t, it’s because you’re really giving it personal meaning. Your delusional belief that you have an image to uphold that is actually keeping you safe. But, it doesn’t. Because you have to keep working it all the time to make sure you feel safe…and, you never do. You never feel safe. You feel righteous sometimes. You feel that you’re getting things in control. You feel like you’re on top of things, but you don’t ever feel safe when you believe that the world is what you have to control…the world that you made. And, this is where the insanity lives! You are trying to control what your mind is projecting and reflecting to you.

It’s all in your mind. If you didn’t want to worry, all you have to do is refuse the illusion outside. Accepting there’s nothing to worry about and give the made up idea to God. If you’re making up what you see, and then you try to control it, you’re trying to double attack your own mind. You have believed the enemy is out there when it’s actually being produced from inside your mind. That’s where the healing is. It can’t be controlled out there. It’s like riding a roller coaster that is insane. You’re never going to be able to control it and you’re never going to feel safe within the world that you keep making and keep projecting out there. It’s the insanity of the belief of separation!

Every time there’s a judgment, you’re in pain. Every time there’s a judgment …fear goes up. Every single time. If you have an assessment or a judgment about anything, it activates your level of concern and worry and alarm. And, your safety is screaming underneath in its vagueness, but it’s not that vague…it’s getting closer…every single time you have a judgment. How is that possible that every time you have a judgment, you’re attacking yourself? It is because you’re separating yourself from God with every judgment. You’re saying, “I know what this means. I know what it’s about. I know what it’s for”. And, you’ve just put God someplace else instead of in the center of your heart where you truly exist with God.

“I don’t know what anything is for. I don’t know how to look at anything. I don’t know what it means”. Why is this so frightening? Because the belief is that you can die. It’s all about being a body, which you are not. You are Divine Spirit. The body is an instrument that’s been used and is called to be used to communicate Love or fear. That’s its only function. Offering Love, expressing Love, communicating Love or fear. And fear…this is the crazy part…fear doesn’t look like fear. You think of fear, you think of being scared viscerally. But fear is arrogance. Fear is pride. Fear is ownership. Fear is the belief in scarcity. Fear is the belief that someone can do something to hurt you.

So, choosing to offer Love or to offer fear. But to realize, trust that you cannot die and you cannot be hurt…you cannot. How is it that you can accept that you can’t die? It’s to accept that you have never lost anyone and nothing that is true has ever died. The Spirit of everything is living. The Spirit of everyone is living and is still totally one with you. Every moment is the moment of learning. It’s an amazing thing to realize that the schoolroom of Love is really here and is yours. But, once you enter that schoolroom of Love, there’s really no turning back because your beliefs are being burned up behind you, unless you’re holding on to them and trying to store them for some purpose. The more that you let go and trust in the Holy universe of God, the happier you will be. That’s where peace comes from. That’s where harmony, joy, everything comes from…the oneness with the universe.

Imagine that there’s 300 billion…you don’t have to imagine this too much…but there’s 300 billion beloveds, and every single one of them is having a thought that is personal and contradictory to everybody else’s. Everybody thinks that they know something and is thinking it and judging others for everything that is already believed, so, there’s just judgment and thinking of separation going on through 300 billion. And this is the chaos that the insanity brings because every single one of those beloveds is in Oneness with all creation. They aren’t separate. Not at all. And, all those separate thoughts are just as insane as every thought of judgment or anything that’s in everybody’s life, making an insane perception of a dangerous world.

What occurs when you run into someone or you meet someone? What is that? It’s a Holy Encounter. It’s a Holy moment of opportunity to offer Love. What are you offering? Are you offering a story about what’s wrong with you or what you’re worried about or what you know? Or are you in the present moment offering Love in whatever way is most helpful in the moment. Are you able to go beyond the self…what about “me” and offer Love /Peace? It’s not self-sacrifice because when you offer Love, you receive Love. So, there’s no sacrifice. But how can you be present for someone and have a story based in your past illusion that has to be about you?

To offer Love is to be at peace. What is the need to give another the fears that are going on in your life or that are believed to be going on in the world? You meet somebody and you say something to them about the imbalance within the world. But, that imbalance of harmony is coming from your mind. The Truth of Love is calling you to offer Truth. Are you willing? You’re there to bless. You’re there to hear what they’re asking for. You’re there in that moment to serve and to bring Love, to bring comfort (Peace), to bring gentleness, to bring kindness because it’s what you are. This isn’t a strain. This is the service of Love, as you offer the kindness that you are, you are expanding the kindness within you.

You are learning the Truth of kindness from within, because you’re not saying whataboutme?Whatareyougivingtome? Anditallworksinthisbeautiful, mysterious way because you start to learn that everyone that you’re paying attention to and offering Love to is you. And you receive that love as deeply as they do because you’re expanding instead of contracting.

What if you get a notice that your insurance is going up and it’s doubling, the temptation of the ego mind is to join in the old familiar, that you’re being unfairly treated within the world. You are upset because you believe you can be unfairly treated. And, the insurance companies are part of the enemy. This is the belief in the world. So, you run into someone and you’re totally locked up in this doubling of your insurance and you run into someone and you may have the presence to say “how are you”? But, really you’re not listening. And, all you can do is wait for an opening so that you can say that your insurance was doubled.

When you are offering that to that beloved who you ran into, you have absolutely no caring about them. You are completely enveloped in “me”. What about me? And it’s a double whammy because you’re believing in an illusion about the insurance that you’re going to be without. You haven’t surrendered it to God. You haven’t rested in I don’t know what this is for. I don’t know how to look at this. I don’t know what it’s about. I have to make sure that this other beloved knows how unfairly the world treats everybody and you should be pitied, so that they stay as far away from God as possible. That’s not the conscious choosing, but that is what is running when all you want to do is talk about how worried you are about something.

That’s not the same thing as being able to say to a beloved “I’ve surrendered this into the Hands of God. I got a notice that my insurance is doubling, but I holding in the faith that I don’t know how this is going to get resolved but it’s going to get resolved because it’s in the Hands of God”. Can you imagine the ministry of your profound offering of Love and faith in that moment by being able to get beyond your personal made up fear and surrender to God and then being able to offer that strength and that faith to another? That’s the grace. It’s honest, it’s not playing a game of “I don’t want to seem desperate or anything”. I’m not trying to protect something about myself. I’m here to offer God’s grace that, yes, I found this out today, but it’s in God’s hands. I’m trusting. I’ve always been taken care of. I will continue to be taken care of. And I don’t know how that will unfold, but, I’m trusting”. And it’s for the purpose of offering your own healing to serve another. Not because it’s your own healing, but because it’s a gift that you just received in coming back to peace, and you’re extending it.

Are you asking the Holy Spirit, “is this helpful for me to speak about? Will this help this beloved?” Because that’s your healing. Your healing is to serve every beloved with Truth, with Love, with alignment. Or this beloved is just talking about how their rent is going up. Do you join with them, “yeah, boy, my rent just went up, too. Yeah, I’m with you”. There’s no Love or honesty there. You’ve just joined in an illusion with someone for the sake of your own ideas, instead of bringing Love, harmony and faith to every beloved.

It’s a calling to be present. To be present in this Holy Moment and not in the past. And to really surrender…as soon as you would find out that your insurance was doubled that you would surrender that immediately into the Hands of God and say “I don’t know how to look at this, but there’s only peace and there’s only Love and there’s only joy and I want to learn to see this differently. I don’t want to see this in fear. There’s nothing to be afraid of. I cannot be hurt. I’m in the Hands of God. I’m totally relying on the Truth of every teaching. I have to. I cannot continue to reject the teachings of Love and play the game of knowing. It’s where the pain and suffering is”.

Can you say to everyone that you have ever known “my heart is a raging volcano of Love for you. My heart is a raging volcano of Love for you”. Because this is the Truth! You may not feel it. You may not like it because the ego is saying “what’s in it for me? I’m the one who’s in suffering here. Why should I have a raging volcano of Love for somebody else when I’m worried about my insurance”? When you are willing to express and extend Love, you’re praying “I’m not giving any power to this insurance thing. This is in Your Hands dear God. There will be an answer that will come. I am trusting in Truth. Help me please dear God, I affirm I’m not willing to spread fear into everyone’s life so that I can feel better because I’ve ‘hot potatoed it’, (tried to get rid of it.) No, I give it to you dear God”. That’s where the healing is, is returning it to God and praying “I don’t understand this. You help me, please. I want to see this differently. I want to see this in Truth. I want to rest. I want peace and I want to learn to Love, because I don’t know how to Love”.

Because there’s no love in competing with someone over how miserable you are. That doesn’t mean that you don’t have and need to have the honesty to be able to say “I’m stuck. I’m stuck in my old beliefs. Bear with me. I’m just stuck. Hold the light with me while I surrender this, because I don’t want to be stuck and it isn’t God’s Will for me to be stuck”. The honesty of being able to express I’m stuck or I’m stuck in fear is…it’s a big difference between saying “I’m stuck in fear” and “I’m afraid”. When you’re saying to someone “I’m really afraid”, you’re really saying “I’m believing in the illusion”. If you’re saying “I’m stuck”, you’re already recognizing that this is not the place that you are needing to be, that you don’t want to be here because it’s not the Truth of you and it’s not the Truth of Reality at all. Fear is not your Reality.

How can I serve everyone within every moment?

Prayer of the Heart. Who is it that you think about that you hold in your heart and carry such a deep prayer to be able to see them for who they truly are? When you have a judgment of someone, it’s an error of thinking, it’s a wrong direction, it’s not helpful, it’s painful. When you have a judgment of someone or a situation, there is an immediate need for correction, for healing. Can you give yourself that space, that permission to want the correction almost immediately after you have the judgment? That you are so not wanting judgment to enter your mind anymore that you are immediately ready to forgive yourself and begin again. And even asking the question, “what was that judgment for? Why was I judging? What did I think that it was going to give me”? And, surrendering that to the Holy Spirit, and then coming back to, “I can’t judge and be in Love and I forgive myself for believing that I could or that it was somehow going to protect me in some way from something”…when there’s nothing to be protected from.

The schoolroom is consistently open, consistently in your life. Learning is going on even when you’re not in a spiritual journey. But in the schoolroom of the ego, it’s learning all the time how to make a better ego, how to protect more deftly, how to be more separate. And, in the schoolroom of Love, it’s a deep learning, to allow yourself to be turned upside down, because everything that you thought you knew was fabricated in illusion. So, when you let yourself be turned upside down, you’re actually being brought into the alignment with Reality. God’s Grace is with you always.

Now, you can pretend that that’s a Hallmark card, and you can have separate lives that you don’t even know that you have. There was a program in the fifties called “I Led Three Lives”, which was about a spy…something like that. How many lives are being led? When you split your life and pretend that you have this life in the world and you have a spiritual life, you’re going to drive yourself crazy, crazier than you already feel, because you can’t serve two masters. You can’t serve them both. And when you try, they don’t gel at all. And, you feel even crazier. So, it’s a loving preservation for peace when you surrender more and more deeply to the spiritual Truth.

And, the other side of that, too, is that when you choose to be split and you have (you think) a separate world over here, everyone that’s in that separate world with you is not having the benefit of your spiritual Truth because you’re keeping it in a separate box . And offering Truth is how you heal. You heal through offering Love. You heal through offering Truth. If there’s a comparison with someone, you’re saying “I’m separate from you and I have to hold you in this image that I’ve made of you that has no reality, but, I have to hold you in that, because it supports my false identity, too”.

Can you walk in this world in Love and still function? Absolutely! It’s actually functioning in a beautiful relationship with everything because you’re transforming while you’re walking in the world. You’re blessing, you’re bringing God’s Grace because the world is longing for Love. Everyone is longing for the Truth of Love, even if they’re not aware of it. But if you’re not consciously wanting to serve that Love, it’s going to be even more painful.

Not because there’s any punishment, but because the hell in the mind is painful.

What keeps anybody up at night? Worry and guilt. They’re strange bedfellows. To invite worry and guilt to sleep with you is upside down to say the least. Why do worry and guilt come into your sleep? Because it’s when you start to be quiet and your mind isn’t as active with distractions, a space opens up and all the guilt of the day comes rushing through and all the worry of all the thoughts that you had of “knowing” are coming to bed with you. They’re repeating to you, “worry about this, worry about this, worry about this”. And, all the judgment that you had during the day is bringing guilt to your sleeping or non-sleeping. Because, when you judge, you have to believe that judgment is real. When you judge, you make it real for you, then you also have to be very concerned…not only are you feeling guilty, but you’re worried about the judgment from the outside, because you believe that judgment is real. And, it’s where all the self-imposed turmoil is.

Do you want to sleep with peace and joy as your fellow sleepers? Because that’s the exchange. When you’re not judging and you’re forgiving yourself for the habit of judging, you’re open to peace and joy. You’re open to the Truth of what you are fully. And you can rest easy because your mind is clear of trying to get something, manipulations, comparisons, judgments. It’s just filled with pain. Let’s say you judge somebody that “looks tired”. What could that mean? Are you concerned for them? Or are you believing that they should get their act together and look better? It’s all the meaning that you’re giving it. If you perceive someone looking tired, it’s a call for Love, and then you are serving them.

If you’re in your own mind saying, “gosh, they haven’t been taking care of themselves. I wouldn’t let myself go out looking like that”. That is going to go to bed with you and be the guilt that you’re carrying, because you didn’t offer Love, you held them in your own version of a false identity. It’s just asking the question. Are you available to ask the question, “What is this for? What do I want to come of this? What do I think I know”? If you worry about someone, you are not trusting in God, you are believing in illusion. If you worry about a relationship, you are not trusting in God and asking for Truth. You have put the relationship before the Truth of Love. I’m looking to get and hold onto something. “I think I know something”. Every single time there is an ego concern, it is the belief of something in your mind that you believe is true that is separate from God. That’s how nitty gritty it gets, because you can’t offer Love and worry at the same time.

The Hallmark card says you can. Hallmark says “absolutely. Let me give you a card that says I’m worried about you”. That’s how much you pretend to love. But, in Truth, you can’t be worried and offer Love. You can’t have a judgment of anyone or anything and be offering Love. You can’t be assessing someone in any way and be offering Love. You just separated yourself from Love by assessing something that’s coming through your own mind. And, your heart, meanwhile, while there’s judgment, your heart is in pain, because it’s being ignored…it’s being shut out. The ego mind is in charge.

There’s a poem by Hafiz that offers:

I don’t want to touch anything in this world
Without recognizing the Truth of my Beloved within it.

That leap of faith, that declaration, was necessary and it’s necessary for everyone to have that in their Heart. To declare in your Heart that you don’t want to see anything of anyone/anything that isn’t the Truth of Love, that you don’t want to touch anything without recognizing the Truth of its oneness with God. That is the purpose of every moment. I must Love. I must Love with all my Heart. I must Love because there’s nothing else I can offer that’s of any value. It doesn’t matter how you have built a reputation in a particular profession or you think that you have an identity in some way that’s different than someone else. Self-made identity has no meaning (other than the meaning you have given to it). It is just a form of temporary illusion. But, you try to protect it, defend it. But, it’s made up!

When the Divine says:
Come naked onto God.

Forget everything and come naked. That nakedness means I have no identity. Not because I’m bereft of an identity, because my true Self is One with God. Divine Spirit of Love. Accept that. And, I have to live it because it’s the Truth. This is the calling. How do you live the Truth? By immersing in Truth. By immersing in sacred teachings that lead you all day long. If you pick a teaching in the morning that you’re going to follow all day.

I could see peace instead of what I’m seeing.

And you follow that all day. All day that Truth is leading you, and you’re counting on that Truth all day. So, there’s no room for drama, there’s no room for “I’m going to tell you what’s wrong in my life”. No, “instead, I could see peace instead of this” is what I’m following. This is God’s gift. “I’m going to offer peace all day. I want to see peace all day because I refuse anything else. This is my spiritual schoolroom”. This is the purpose of this incarnation is just to remember the Truth of what your Divine Self is. Your beauty, your perfection, your Light, your Love, your immense reflection of God. You are the gift of the universe in your true divine nature and there’s nothing that you have to do to earn it, there’s nothing you have to do to convince.

It is the Truth. It is THE Light and this is an offering of “let my own voice be still so that I can hear the Voice of Love. Quiet my mind, so that I can hear the voice of Love”. Let that be your prayer and know that God is in your Heart waiting to be recognized. Only Love. I Must Love. Moment to moment. Only Love.

Chris Celine © 2016

Innocent Light of God. These words declare the state of Being that has no resemblance to the ego’s identity. And yet, to accept that you are innocence itself, that you are Light itself must be the choosing that changes everything. When the Divine gave us choice, it was to truly encompass choice as the most precious gift that we could ever imagine. And in the direction of Love, Spirit directs to choose to open to the awareness that choice is essential. That it isn’t a gift that was given because it was your birthday, or it was you’re retiring, some kind of parting gift. The gift of choice is the essential power that must be embraced in its totality. And while choice is being learned, mistakes will be made. That’s a given in a sense. It’s not expected or anticipated, but it is understood.

That every Beloved will mistakenly choose the shiny objects, will mistakenly choose the pleasure seeking, will mistakenly choose to be right. But these are places of deep learning. To finally make the true connection of cause and effect. But when you choose the power of Love and you choose to follow and you choose to learn and you choose to not know but to be shown, you are learning the power of your choice. You are truly learning that within your choosing is your road to freedom or your status quo road that keeps you in the belief of separation. Every single time you choose, which could incorporate the entire day…choosing. Because everything that you believed was true within the world and looking for everything outside is being called to be completely turned upside down.

Imagine the spiritual journey like a journey to another country where you didn’t speak the language and had completely different ways of being and different setups, a different time zone and different everything. And you insisted on doing it your way of what you know. It wouldn’t take very long before you’re miserable from the insistence that your way is the right way. And the same thing occurs in the spiritual journey. You become affected by your decisions. And eventually, you will make a much deeper connection that your way is the way of misery and pain. And the way of the light is the way of peace and harmony. But the ego’s decision of being right can be very tenacious.

And so, it is to…in the very first way, to accept that the gift of choice is precious.

The gift of choice is your key to opening the door to truth, to reality, to peace. Embrace the choice. And as you go deeper and deeper into choosing again and again. And the way of Love…your awareness expands. And your trust grows so much deeper. But, eventually, the choice becomes no choice at all. You can’t even imagine choosing pain and suffering. You can’t even imagine choosing to be right when all it’s done is bring to a place of misery in the past. And the reluctant learner, the resistant student becomes the happy learner, happy to be mistaken of your own choices, happy that you weren’t right because God’s way is another dimension. God’s way is Love and Light, the setting of everyone free. Choose the way of sanity and you will never be in regret.

So, in this moment, affirming deeply that choice is the great gift…the treasure. And when you choose based on your willingness, you are the bringer of Light. Affirming in the moment that this universe is all Love. To choose Love is to choose reality. There is only one Presence here – it is the life force of God. And everyone…every living element of God’s creation lives and moves and breathes within that Light, that life force, that Oneness. Only Love. This Sanctuary is filled with Love. Nothing else exists. Holding Truth, holding Love. Moment to moment. As the Heart says YES. Simply YES. YES.

This is a hymn that speaks to the YES. It’s a choice. And this hymn asks for help to teach me how to love. Show me how to choose. Show me the way.

[Sings]

Mother, my mother
Please come here, please,
To teach this child of yours
To teach this child of yours
Who doesn’t yet know how to love. Who doesn’t yet know how to love. Oh mother, Queen Mother,
I ask with all my heart.
Please send your angel Please send your archangel To teach me how to love. To teach me how to love.

Teach me how to love. Well the ego says “I don’t need to be taught how to love. I know it just fine.” Except that everything that has been called love in the world has been based on fear, has been based on negotiations, has been based on differences, proving, getting. And here is the calling. Really teach me how to love. Teach me how to go past all that I’ve made up. And really open to walk in love, as love, with love and in love.

And all that we have to do is to get into the little boat. Let the little boat be navigated. Choose to be led. Choose to follow. Choose to not know. And allow the Divine to lead the way.

The small boat is coming.
It’s the Love, the Light
And it is a small boat that is here.
It’s opening the path to God, our Lord.
Blessed Mother is guiding my boat
As you rest and affirm
I surrender, I surrender, I surrender
To the will of the eternal Light, the eternal Father And in my heart I proclaim
That I am the kingdom of Love.

This prayer can take you so deeply into surrender. To truly be in a small boat and to trust that your journey is being directed by Love itself. And that for the first time in your many lifetimes that you’re finally tired of trying to control and trying to make it your way rather than just the way of God. How easy that is.

Today

I
Do not
Want to step so quickly
Over a beautiful line on God’s palm. As I move through the earth’s Marketplace
Today.

I do not want to touch any object in This world
Without my eyes testifying to the Truth

That everything is My Beloved.

Something has happened
To my understanding of existence That now makes my heart always Full of wonder
And kindness.

I do not
Want to step so quickly
Over this sacred place on God’s Body-the earth,
That is right beneath your
Own foot.

As I
Dance with Precious life Today. [Hafiz]

….

I
Do not
Want to step so quickly
Over a beautiful line on God’s palm. As I move through the earth’s Marketplace
Today.

What a beautiful declaration of an intention. And in that moment that definitely was the choice that was being chosen between my way and God’s way.

The one area that is more than likely the most attached element within the ego life is wanting…we touched on this a few days ago…wanting to correct, wanting to have it your way. Whatever it is. And I began looking at that today.

What if there was a month-long retreat? And in this month-long retreat everything was perfectly orchestrated. And there were Beloveds there that would take care of anything that was needing attention. So that nothing in your everyday, moment-to-moment existence would have no room…there would be no invitation, that there would be no possibility of changing things so that they would be according to how you like them.

So, everybody’s seat would be given to them. And there was no room for correcting where you were sitting or where you didn’t like somebody sitting in front of you…but you have to accept every single element and trust in its perfection. Trust that there was a learning within acceptance. And then you went, in this retreat…everyone took care of their own toiletries and, you know, everything like that, your own personal effects.

But, when you went to work in the kitchen in this retreat, everything had a plan already. And nobody asked any of the retreat participants how they liked their food or what was a better way of making it or anything. It was just acceptance of everything the way it was. And there were musicians, and your mind wanted to say “I wish they played those instruments differently. I wish they would have a different relationship with the violin. I like it better another way.” And all of the gatherings were orchestrated and everything in you could see a different way of doing it and felt that a different way would be better. But, the whole purpose of the retreat was to let go and trust that it was all in perfection, and all for learning.

Where would the need for the correction go? That nobody had any way of changing how the table was set. Or nobody was able to change how the dishwasher was being loaded up. Or nobody was able to change the lights that got used. And you weren’t asked for your preference on where you sat or who sat next to you. And just when you thought this was over the top, you’re seated next to someone who has a really loud voice and speaks their mind. But your intention and your calling to this retreat was that you have no judgments, no opinions. So you’re asked to see this Beloved who’s sitting next to you as the Christ, as the Light of God, and nothing else. Because so far, everything that’s been attached to…the way the kitchen’s run, the way people are doing laundry, sitting, whatever. Everything is a certain way. And your main purpose in all of this is to have no judgment, to have no opinion, and because you have no judgment, recognize that there is nothing to correct. Nothing to correct.

So there’s going to be a ritual in this retreat. And all the chairs are set up. Nobody asked if anybody liked the way the chairs were set up. And then there’s a Beloved going around and lighting candles, turning lights on. And again, nobody asks anybody whether there’s enough light or it’s too dark or anything else. They have a ritual that they’re doing. And over and over and over again you’re called to accept. To just accept that everything is in perfection, even though it’s nothing that you…your habits are completely different. But you’re called to accept.

What is that? To accept and not have an opinion about how things are put together, orchestrated, run. It’s this incredible opportunity and one that is so essential to healing and to Love. Because everything that anyone wants to correct has that urge to have it different, see it different, want it different, believe from the depths of your identity that you have the right way, and it’s better.

In this retreat, you start to see the addiction. The addiction of your way, your habits, of how things are accepted or not accepted in all different kinds of ways. But this is like going to another country where they don’t speak the same language and they do everything in a slightly different way. And you’re not asked about your opinions of how you do it. You’re called to accept it. Everything about trying to be in control and have things…that you have a better way that you want to tell everybody how it should be in a particular way. And everybody’s got a different way about that. But every single thing is going to be about something in form. It’s not about Spirit. And that’s the clue. The clue is is that there’s no healing when you try to change or make better the form. Because what you’re really here for is to choose to see the Light of every Beloved beyond the form. Beyond the form.

So, could you say to the Christ, so here’s the Beloved who you’re here to see as the Christ light, and can you see them as the Christ light and want to correct them? Because the correction would say “you’re not the Christ light.” The Christ light doesn’t need correction. There’s plenty of forgiveness needed. But it’s not about correction ever. As soon as there seems to be the need for correction, it’s the belief in the form. Now that doesn’t mean that there’s never improvement within the form. But it comes from a completely different place. It doesn’t come from a personal knowing. It comes from asking even there, the Spirit of Love, what would be most helpful? Is there another way of looking at this?

Having been in so many rituals and have been able to see how Spirit works within the form of a ritual, that there is a Divine Geometry that can’t be seen by the eyes. It can’t be seen by the ego’s mind. It can’t be a habit…at all. It’s a sacred geometry that is beyond the senses of the ego, the eyes, the ears, which are held as such important elements that they’re really…they’re just seen with the eyes and hearing with the ears. But you’re hearing through the ego in most of that. You have to really surrender the senses into the hands of God so that they can be used in a different way – the Light of Love. But it’s all surrender

But, in those rituals, you could see the sacred geometry and listen to the Holy Spirit…how things were to be orchestrated. The beauty of that, not only the learning of another dimension, but it was the deep surrender of the personal. That there was nothing personal, there was nothing to bring of history from the past to be brought there. And that’s the same thing with correction. You can’t bring love and bring the past of what you think you know and want to correct. You can’t serve love and serve the ego at the same time. It’s not possible.

If you take certain teachings, you see the pattern is so clear of not correcting. So if you just begin with I do not understand anything I see. So, if you don’t understand anything that you see, and that is your schoolroom, then how can you correct it? If you don’t understand anything that you see and you’re embracing that you don’t understand anything that you see. It’s been given meaning that you gave to it. So, where would the correction come in? It would be foolish to think that your way has anything to do with love. All it is is a habit that you’ve believed in. But it has no value because it’s held as so personal. It’s held as “this is my way. This is what I know works. And if I don’t do what I know works, I get scared.” Because that’s really the key. The key is, “if I don’t get to do it my way, I get really scared because I feel out of control.”

So, then you have in this retreat…let’s say there’s 30 Beloveds, and do they all feel out of control, because none of them are having their opinions asked for or invited? Likely there may be 30 fears that are going on. 30 panics that are trying to figure out how to stay at peace, but wanting their way, because it’s what brings the perception of comfort, even though it’s not.

I have given what I see all the meaning that it has for me.

Again, these are…you can’t be in these teachings and also hold onto what you know. Because it’s asking you actually to let go of the meaning and to see that you’ve given this all the meaning and it’s holding you in a hostage place by giving something meaning of importance or righteousness.

I have judged everything I look upon…it is merely an illusion of reality.

I have judged everything that I look upon. These are just, again, these are just teachings that all line up and say it’s time to let go. And it’s time to see that there can’t be a correction of any kind.

What would it be…let’s say someone is behaving in a way that’s more gregarious than you’re used to or that you like around you. And you want to tell them that their demeanor, their energy field is too loud. But the temptation of that is that you believe you’re right, and what you’re usually believing in is the irritation that you feel within. You’re not seeing that the irritation is just coming from your own mind of your own judgment. But in reality, to be able to say that to someone “tone it down,” whatever…is to have the arrogance of the ego to believe that you know what they need to walk through, that you would know how their journey needs to look or what it is that would be most helpful for them. You could go deeply into the asking and be guided to what would serve that Beloved. But, when you’re at the effect of your own judgment, and what you think you know, it’s going to end up, probably, in pain because it’s not offering love, you’re not seeing the Christ, you’re wanting it thus. You have another idea of how it should be. And, it’s a deep, deep learning to no longer be willing to correct or do things your own way.

Imagine that you’re setting the table. And, somebody else is setting the table too. And they’re doing it completely in a different way. They’re putting plates in different positions. And the Holy Spirit keeps saying, leave it be, it’s perfect. Learn from it. Learn, what did you think by them not putting it the way that you feel it should be, that there’s an agitation within you, a feeling of unsafety because you like the known. And yet, this is actually the healing that this Beloved is offering by not putting those plates in the right way…the “right way,” you’re getting the opportunity of seeing a fear, the fear of wanting habits to stay the same.

The fear of the unknown and the belief that knowing something and being familiar with it is actually safer. It’s an illusion that it’s safer. It’s just because your mind agrees with it that it becomes a place of safety. But it doesn’t offer anything like real safety, because safety comes from being undefended, from not being at the effect of any form at all. But trusting that everything is in perfect harmony all the time, and wanting to see the Light of the Christ.

When you judge, you see only form. The body is all that you see.

The body, remembering that the body is outside you. It’s not within. And just as everything is outside. So, everything that you believe, needs to look a different way is part of form. And it’s always going to be changing. And it’s never going to be yours to control. And, there’s nothing to control. It doesn’t have any meaning to it. You’ve given it all the meaning, but it really doesn’t have any power, and it doesn’t have any truth in it.

And then, just imagine yourself at peace and accepting and learning from whatever shows up. Because that’s what the offering really is… is that everything is perfect. That everything has the opportunity of healing. I had so many healings in retreats like that because everything was in a particular orchestration that I had nothing to do with. I couldn’t even guess what it was for. But I had to accept it. And when I was told to go show up in the kitchen to work, I was terrified. I didn’t know what was coming and I didn’t know how to cook. I was terrified. And yet, that’s where I had to be. And I had a deep healing in exactly that place because it was not what I would have orchestrated for myself. Every single moment it’s the opportunity that there is nothing to control. Absolutely nothing that you can control. It’s all momentary, fleeting and moving. And only Love is reality.

If your attempt is to correct a Beloved with whatever you think is an improvement, it is totally the arrogance of the ego that has decided that your way is the right way. Besides it being untrue, and that correcting anyone is for God’s correction not for our own…but it also stops the learning. It stops the opportunity of learning what is actually here. Where if you’re putting your own spin on it and you’re trying to control it, you’re not getting that opportunity of learning what’s really in the way.

It’s like…let’s say this same retreat…nobody knows what time anybody shows up. So, there’s a whole group of other Beloveds that are coming, but they could arrive anywhere from 6:00 to 6:00 the next morning. And, you don’t know. That place is filled with the opportunity of healing. To just drop into the not knowing and really question, “what is it that scares me of not knowing? Why do I need to know what time they’ll be here? What do I believe that time is giving me. How does it make me safe? How does it make me feel better? I’m used to that, I want that. I want to know everything so that I’m in control.”

But truly, if you don’t know what time they’re coming, what difference does it make? There’s nothing to hold in safety. And, what actually happens is on the other side when you’re intention is to not know. Freedom comes with it. Free of the rules of the world. Free from the rules that you’ve made up of how things should be. Free. It touches everything. It touches everything …you wake up in the morning and you look at the clock, because time belongs to the ego completely and has to be surrendered to be used by Spirit. But when it belongs to the ego, and you look at the clock, and the weirdest thing occurs is that if you look at the clock, and you decide, “Oh, well, that was a pretty good night sleep. I had seven hours.” And you immediately feel something about the amount of sleep that you had, even though you’re not out of bed. If you see that you had only four hours sleep, immediately there’s a tiredness that comes from “ahhhh. Gosh, I only had four hours sleep.” And this is where the healing is is to let go of all of this preconceived idea that that means something because you gave it meaning.

It’s a place where you actually are trading this ego mind that is locked into time into a place of freedom that you’re willing to be at peace always. And that the strength of God is your strength and that you’re not going to set yourself up to say this is terrible, this is horrible, I don’t like this, this isn’t what I like to use, this is not how many hours I want. But, it’s all conditioning. It’s all an idea of what you think you know. And it causes pain and suffering, it just does.

You cannot correct yourself.

So, because you can’t correct yourself, most correct others. But, you can’t correct yourself either. You can’t take a belief that you have…let’s say you’re afraid of the dark. You have to surrender your belief in the dark and it’s unsafety into the hands of God, and be willing to see it differently – that’s your participation. But, you can’t correct yourself and change it. The belief in the fear of the dark has to be given to God. The belief that you could be injured, that you could be hurt by being in the dark, that there’s a danger in darkness…there is no danger in darkness. But the correction has to come from the Divine. We cannot correct our own lives. We can be willing to be shown the way that is most helpful, but we can’t correct ourselves.

When healing is occurring, for example, to give up, not to sacrifice, but to surrender your relationship with taste, the senses, the sense of taste…to surrender your relationship with taste is to say please heal me of my judgment of what I like and don’t like, because it keeps me a prisoner. Show me the way to acceptance of whatever is is perfect, and let go of the defense system that I’ve built with likes and dislikes that I narrow my little life down and try to protect myself with these likes and dislikes. But they’re not freedom. Then you’re the slave of your senses, of your taste likes and dislikes, and it’s all surrendering and being free of it all. Loving everything and not being restricted by opinions that, some of them were made at five years old and carried along. But they’re all saying I believe in the body and I believe in everything the ego has given me. And everybody wants to be free. Everybody has to be free. But you cannot correct yourself and you cannot correct somebody else. And there’s so much pain involved in that decision and most of it is an unconscious decision of being the corrector. And the arrogance of believing that how you play the piano is better than how somebody else plays the piano. Who says? Who’s the decider and why? It’s all to prove worth that isn’t the truth. You are the light of God. You are the perfection of the Christ Light. And to want to be better than somebody else at something is insane, because you’re already perfect. You’re already everything that you could possibly be even if you don’t know it.

The ego wants to convince you that you can correct another and it is meant to prove separation. Every time you want to correct something, it’s saying “we’re separate. I know the way. You don’t. I know a better way.” You don’t. And it separates, because there’s no love there.

A Beloved asked “well, can’t you correct with love?” No, you cannot believe in the form as the problem and believe in Love at the same time. If somebody needs to be corrected and you’re the one who’s deciding what it is that they need to correct, you’re looking at them as a form because everything of correction is about form. And it’s the opportunity of surrendering the form and going to the deeper truth of seeing the Christ light. Seeing the innocence of each Beloved, not wanting to see anything else and not judging.

Letting the Spirit of Love show you, teach you, lead you in every way. And all of those habits and the addiction to the doing begins to let go, because it isn’t where your happiness is, it isn’t where the truth of you is, and it’s not the truth of anybody. Just see the Christ Light. Want to see the Light of God. Almost everybody knows this teaching: when a Beloved behaves insanely, the only thing that you can give to them is the truth of sanity…is to see beyond what you believe to be insanity and to see them as sane. To see them as the Light of God.

The ego loves, loves, loves to be offended. To be offended is like desert. Because, with being offended comes a sense of superiority and a sense of knowing, because if you’re offended you know something. Obviously they don’t. But, it doesn’t bring Love at all. It’s just old habits that are just about judgments. And, they make everybody live in guilt. Because as soon as you’re offended or you want to correct somebody or do something differently or showing somebody how they should be doing this…that you have the “right way,” you’re going to be miserable. Because you’re going to be worried what they think about you, you’re going to be holding onto the righteousness of your decision, you’re going to be in turmoil. But you didn’t offer anything of Love.

You made up something that you decided was what was necessary, but it wasn’t Love. And it didn’t serve your remembering, because you can’t learn when you’re believing that you can correct yourself or correct somebody else. How many times a day can you enter into I don’t know. Tons. And every time that you enter into I don’t know, the Holy Spirit is there, wanting to direct you. You’ve never going to be left without a relationship with the Truth, a relationship with Love itself.

No exceptions…I must see the Christ Light in every Beloved. And trust their journey into the hands of the Divine. And have no opinions about their lives or the way they’re walking their journey. We don’t know. But we can ask again and again and again show me how to serve this Beloved. Show me what’s most helpful. Show me the way. Show me how to convey Love. And let my mind be emptied of all its habits and its expectations and its idea that it’s right.

I don’t know why, but correcting somebody is such folly. It would be like me deciding that I was going to teach somebody how to cook. Now, if the Holy Spirit said you’re going to teach somebody how to cook, then the Holy Spirit would bring the capabilities of that. But, it’s the same all the way across the board. Nobody would benefit from my teaching anybody how to cook. And it’s the benefit. What are you offering when you try to correct? What are you offering? You’re offering that you will feel better if they do it your way. That’s the ego’s intention. “I’ll feel better, because it will be my way.”

But, it’s really time to let all of that go and open to the Holy Spirit’s direction for everything. How would you have me look at this? Where would you have me go? Who would you have me help? Show me the way. I don’t know. But, there cannot be any correction. It just has absolutely no truth and no value. And even when you’re in charge of something…let’s say at a retreat…and you’re put in charge of something, it’s still not up to you as a person. It’s up to you to ask the Holy Spirit for guidance to show you the way of how to be of service. When you find that place within that’s humility that says I’m just following orders. I’m following the way of the Divine. That’s all that I can bring. And all the healing just occurs in that way. Only your allegiance to the ego is what makes the decisions, but it’s time to let it go.

I brought this teaching from Hafiz. From his teacher.

Spare the world your good ideas. Spare the world your ideas of good Until you know all is perfect.

Spare the world your ideas of what is right Until you know all is Holy.

So, this teacher brought that alignment for Hafiz and Hafiz had to align with it. Not because he was coerced, not because he was being railroaded, but because he wanted to remember and remember the truth of Love and how to love.

Mother oh my mother teach this child to love. Show me the way.

And let your prayer just be please heal me of all addictions to control and the belief that control means anything. Or correction means anything. Except in the hands of God. Correct me in every way. Because it’s all through Love. And, it’s all through miracles. Only Love.

Chris Celine © 2016

Innocent creation. Accept that innocence is all that there is. How do you navigate that innocence is all that there is? If you wake up in the morning and you embrace that you are innocent, that you are the innocence of God, the innocence of Creation, what can follow for the day? To accept that you can see only innocence, that you can be only innocence and that only innocence exists. In that acceptance, where are you going to go after that? You’re certainly not going to turn the corner and say, “I don’t want that innocence, I want that misery instead”! That’s not going to happen more than likely. If it does, a deeper resistance is running. It would be more likely that you could start out with not remembering being the innocence and then embrace the innocence with acceptance.

But, why not start out the day with the declaration “I am the innocence of God. Only innocence exists. I don’t want to see anything else. I don’t want to know anything else because God has willed it to be so.” And with that comes a letting go. Surrender. No more protecting a false identity. Imagine that day you wake up and it comes to you “it seems like I fight hard to stay with what I know. But what I know is all made up in my mind. So now maybe I could actually surrender what I think I know and invite the knowledge of God.” Invite it. Embrace it. And speak to that knowledge of God. Speak and expect an answer. Commune with the Divine.

It’s the preciousness of the every moment. Let it take you to join in that communion. It’s too precious to be ignored. It’s too precious to skim over it. But in this moment, also, as the innocence of Creation, such a beautiful, deep letting go. Beautiful surrender…of all that you thought you were. Letting the Holy Spirit show you pictures, show you circumstances where you were mistaken, where you thought you were somebody, and you had an identity. Now it can be shown to you how you have lived…all of humanity have lived in a life of delusion of a separate self. And in surrender, it starts to fade. That false imagery starts to fade. And it’s the blessing of healing when it starts to fade. Because what takes its place is the Light. The Light that is within, the Light that is all around you. The Light that is the Truth of God.

Innocence of God. Imagine that you would accept in willingness that everyone was innocent? And in that premise of acceptance that everyone is innocent, that you would take that and see everyone in that innocence because you want to. So, what would that look like? It would look like you had a tennis racket and every thought that came up about what you thought you knew about somebody, you would hit it with your tennis racket and send it into the oblivion because it didn’t mean anything. You would send it like you would send a tennis ball.

An idea comes to you of how old somebody is or what their accomplishments are or what their accomplishments aren’t or what you think about them. And each thought just gets thrown up in the air and smacked with the tennis racket and sent over the bushes never to be heard from again. And as you send them, throw them into air, your heart sings “Go to God.” While you’re playing tennis with your thoughts, you begin to realize that without those thoughts you do see a different reality. Without those thoughts, Light begins to show up. It was always there, but wasn’t noticed because there were all these thoughts that were camouflaging Reality.

And you start to also notice that all of these perceived major and minor differences that seem to be in every body’s identity are fading away. You can’t really tell too much difference between one Beloved and another Beloved because they’re both innocent. They’re both the Light of God. They’re both perfect. They’re both One with you. And all three…you can’t find any difference anymore. And you begin to recognize what it is that God has been wanting you to find. The innocence that is waiting to be discovered with every Beloved. And when you look in the mirror, do you see a haircut or do you see the Light of God? You have an opinion about what you see in the mirror or does happiness come from your Heart? Because, the innocence of God is looking back at you.

The Miracles of Creation are always available for every element of your life. And how easy it is to allow that YES to lead the way. And in this moment YES of innocence, to the entire universe. This universe is all love, it is innocent. It is the innocence of Love itself. This Sanctuary is filled with the Love that is innocent, pure, and Holy. Can’t even be changed. Always the innocence. And in this moment, only innocence, no other thoughts. Love is this present moment. Love is all that there is. There is one existence…the life force of God. Everyone carries the life force of God within them. It’s the strength of Truth. And the weakness of the ego starts to disappear, starts to fade because the strength of God is being chosen.

I’m not weak, but strong in the Truth of Love.
I’m not helpless but all powerful, in the Truth of Love.

It’s where you hold your attention in the strength of Love.

I was called to sing a few hymns that were instrumental in healing for me. The beauty of these hymns, these particular hymns that I usually sing, is their uniqueness of how they manifested within the world. Every single one of them was brought by a Divine Being and brought through whoever it was that was the recipient of that hymn. The beloved was chosen, called to be the recipient. The hymn that was brought by a Divine Being was for the recipient, for a distinct way of paying attention to this particular hymn of healing that was pertinent to their own journey.

Not exclusive, but pertinent. The hymns that became powerful for me were not necessarily the hymns that I received, that I was called to bring through. Many of them came through the Master that had opened to the Divine Mother to allow these hymns to come through and to open the path of Love.

When you hear these hymns and you consider that these are coming from Divine Beings exclusively for the purpose of your healing…of anyone who hears them, of anyone who can take these teachings and live through the offering to allow them to influence your learning and that you learn from them because they’re powerful directions to the Divine.

This particular hymn…I wouldn’t know when this hymn was going to be sung because I didn’t have a very good grasp of numbers or sequences. So, this hymn is numbered 108. So, before this hymn would be sung, within the ritual there would be 107 sung before it, sometimes twice. So, sometimes it was 200 and…the energy was holding my attention so I couldn’t keep track of anything. But, every time this hymn was being sung, I would already be shaking. I would be shaking before it was sung, because the power of it was…such a deep call to me. Not knowing why, but just answering to that deep calling. And here’s the teaching.

I sing here on earth of the Love God brings to me
Forever, forever, forever, forever.
My Mother, who comes with me, who brings me the lessons
Forever, forever, forever to be a beloved of all.
Stepping away from all those who are not interested in remembering. And who don’t want or aren’t ready yet to listen.
And who have not realized that they’re not happy.
This is the home of the Divine that brings all joy,
All peace, all harmony
To all those who are ready to come home,
Here in this Truth of Love.

The purpose of this hymn, when I said forever, forever, forever, forever, this is the integral part of it. This is a declaration that forever, Para Sempre , forever I will be in devotion to the Divine. Forever I will be ready to listen to the Divine.

There is a fear that comes with forever, forever, forever, forever. With fear the ego says “no, no, I’m the decider of what is forever…not God, not the Divine Mother.” And there’s a fear of forever. And yet, we are forever the Light of God. And this temporary identity has nothing to do with the fullness of the forever to God. Para Sempre, forever I will follow, forever.

I Beg

I beg, I beg the Father, my Father
To bring me the Holy Light to illuminate my path. I ask for this help.
I ask the Blessed Mother
And I asked the Christ Light, the Redeemer,
To illuminate my path on the path of Love.
This path of Love is in my Heart.
I ask Jesus to lead the way, to show the way.
I beg for Light.
I beg to see the Way.
Only you can show us the Way,
As I forgive myself for having lived Without the awareness of Love
And the Truth of the Spiritual Identity. I beg.
Bring me the Holy Light to illuminate my path.

When I first began hearing these hymns, and I saw beloveds who were part of this path that were singing and humming all the time and studying all the time. They carried a book with them all the time, because they were so engrossed in the learning of spiritual Truth. And, that image always stayed with me of their devotion and their purpose. And it made it so much easier than…to carry these hymns to work every day, to carry the teachings in whatever way they came to fill my heart and fill my mind and be in that devotion with them. And, how beautiful that devotion sparked the YES within.

We Add To Ourselves or Detract

Every time you open your mouth
And let a sound out, you alert the prey. And who is not hunting
Because of some hunger?

What you seek may run in different ways.
Or people you know may begin to snarl within When they see you coming.

We add to ourselves or detract whenever we speak. We speak our words
And turn those words into an entity
And a magnetic field

Someone has to reckon with. [continued below]

Our words turn into a magnetic field that goes out. Imagine how many magnetic fields there are just on this street? With all these thoughts that are being transmitted. And what kind of magnetic field are you adding to? It’s seeing it from that different place that you all have so much power. You have the power of Truth. And, you also have the power of illusion. And whichever you choose is what you are contributing. Either Love or fear.

[continued]

I have found it is best to be on good terms With as much as one can,
Controlling the notes from the flute,
From the body that can rise to serve.

Yes, we add to ourselves or detract In some ways with each movement. I have increased my worth so much, A treasury I have become

That I hope you loot. [Hafiz]

Looting a Divine Being of their treasure is one way of remembering the Truth…of wanting it so deeply.

Willingness is such an integral part of the learning of Love. But sometimes, willingness is not seen really clearly…how powerful your willingness is, choice, willingness…that’s it. That’s all that you have to work with, is to choose between Truth, Love or the made up past. So, you’re always choosing one or the other. With willingness you prepare your mind for the willingness. With your intention, you prepare for God’s presence with your willingness because you’re willing or you’re not willing, depending on what you choose. But, in your willingness, you are actually preparing for the teachings that will be coming. That’s the beautiful element of willingness. It’s the same thing as choice, and it’s either being chosen all the time or not, depending on what you want. But to realize how much your willingness is essential…either opens the door or not. That’s how much power you have. To make that choice.

Only by recognizing that you want healing above all else does the door open. That you want healing. Not that you know how healing occurs. Not that you know what the healing should look like. Not that you are in charge of the situation. Just that you’re willing. That you want (above all else) healing. And in that above all else that you want healing is such a deep level of trust, because you’re basically saying to God, the Holy Spirit, “you have carte blanche. I’m not here to tell you what needs to be healed. I’m here to ask for your healing of what you see is in the way,” because the Holy Spirit, the Divine Beings, the Guides, they all have the awareness of what’s in the way. So when you bring your willingness, it’s a GO. It’s a green light. It’s what you’ve been waiting for.

“I’m willing to see this differently. I’m willing to follow. I’m willing to ask…what’s most helpful. I’m willing, most of all to see peace instead of what I’m seeing… all the willingness.” And, as the Divine says, only bring your willingness. The next line of that Holy invitation is “and please don’t do anything else.” Only bring your willingness. Leave the rest to the Divine.

It is not helpful that you do more.

Why is it not helpful to do more? You would think that the more the better. But what happens is that once you have the willingness, everything else is orchestrated. Everything else is Divinely orchestrated. The Divine is aware of every moment of your existence. There is nothing, there are no secret thoughts, there is nothing that you have held that hasn’t been in the awareness of Love and what is most helpful for your healing. That’s why healing is so perfect, because it is orchestrated by the knowledge of what is most helpful for you.

Often, what happens in healing is that from this place of being the recipient of healing, it’s very sloppy. Healing is sloppy, because the Holy Spirit/God doesn’t use linear for healing. The healing Light moves as it needs to move through your past and your framework of time and everything else. And the Holy Spirit is moving through it and using healing as it’s coming to what needs to be healed first, and second, and then…and it’s all perfectly orchestrated.

There is no way that I could have walked through healing with any kind of awareness of what needed to be healed. Every time the ego showed me the past, all I could see was this giant maze of dark complications that were so incredibly enmeshed that there was no way that I could have in any way gone into that maze. The ego keeps saying, “don’t go to healing. It’s just too difficult.” But the Holy Spirit just moves and weaves through all of that maze and has no complications at all, because the Holy Spirit is in complete knowledge of what it is that needs to be healed within you before the next piece can be healed.

If you decide that you know what it is that needs to be healed, you will not be happy because it won’t be able to be healed because there’s a rhythm and a flow that has to come through surrender. Imagine that you would be having an operation in the world, and you’re on the operating table, and you get up on your elbows and say “no wait, wait. I have an idea, I know how it needs to be done. I’m going to tell you how to work through this surgery.” Well, everybody would probably drop their tools and leave the room. But this is what the ego wants to do with healing. The ego wants to pretend that it’s part of the team, and yet, the whole time, the Holy Spirit is saying “just be willing. Just be willing. Feel your willingness. Bring that.” Because everything that the Holy Spirit is going to show you is not going to be “oh goody.” What the Holy Spirit brings out of the shadows is what you haven’t wanted to see, what you have been hiding from yourself…possibly. Everybody carries the same thing.

Peace and joy and light abide in me.

It’s a teaching. And the first words are “you think you are the home of evil” and all kinds of words that go along with evil. And that if anybody saw how terrible you were they would want …you would want to die at your own hand, going on would be too much. Everybody is carrying the same beliefs in their mind of their darkness. So, how is that identity of darkness going to be honest to bring it to the light? It’s not. It’s not. That’s not the way of the ego’s nature. The ego’s nature is not going to volunteer. But the Holy Spirit is going to gently let you see the mistaken ideas of your identity. And all that you have to do is hold the Hand of Love and be willing to recognize “yes, that those are my beliefs. That’s my envy. That’s my jealousy. That’s my greed. Those are my lies that I told. Those are my manipulations.”

Now in the willingness…if you can say YES, and really want that to be healed, it will be healed. It will be healed because you’re willing to look at it for what it is – that it was never your friend, that it was always fear, that it was always desperation that it was always the belief that you didn’t have worth.

It was always based on lies and that’s what’s coming for healing – all the lies. “I made it up. And I lied to myself about what I made up because I was afraid to not have an important identity. I was scared to look.”

This is the same addiction that anybody has that is addicted to any kind of substance. A heroin addict will go through exactly the same thing. You put a heroin addict in rehab and they will be afraid of the same things. They will be afraid of the lies that they’ve told, of the people they’ve disappointed, of the disregard for others, of the facades that they wanted to build and hide behind because of their pain, because of their fear. It’s the same thing. The addiction of the ego is the source of all worldly addictions and is strong within whatever form it uses. The addict that’s in rehab is able to take that leap of faith because it’s based on the recognition of a Higher Power. It’s in the recognition that they are addicted. And you all have to come to the awareness of the addiction of the ego. Of how much fear you have used to try to survive. And how none of it was the Truth. Allowing Spirit to bring it to the Light. Really wanting it to be healed because it has no reality. Really embracing forgiveness and accepting you were mistaken. And this is your own healing. This is maybe the first time that you would have a connection with actual Love.

The upsidedowness that you have believed in for century after century, lifetime after lifetime, that this upsidedowness is being turned right side up so that you can see it in its authenticity. The protection that you want to build and hold for the ego is keeping you out of the awareness of Love. When you will be able to say to the Holy Spirit “YES, I’m going to forgive myself for all of these lies, the greed, the jealousy, the envy, whatever it was…this is not the Truth of me and I am surrendering this.” And, this surrender may be the first inkling, the first touching that you would have with real Love. That you would be touching into a place of Love because you would be willing to see the lies and see them for what they are.

That would be the generosity, the honesty, the compassion of Love that you would be offering to your Self by saying “YES, I want this to be healed,” because that is the loving thing to do with this journey. This is the journey of Love. And to surrender to the Holy Spirit is Loving. It is the Love that you barely remember, but it’s Love. It’s Love because it’s generous, because it’s honest, because it’s Truth, because it’s God’s reality. God’s reality is that you are innocent. And you are then joining with that innocence. You are joining with the innocence of Love and saying “YES, I want this healed. I’m willing. I’m willing to see what I made up and I’m willing to turn it over…to disown the past with all the lies.” And, the most amazing thing will happen to you in the healing. Because it is so much like someone who has been addicted to whatever it is being able to finally stand up and say “I was addicted to that. I was addicted to it and now I am saying NO, I don’t want this anymore. I want to remember Love. I want to come home to Love.” That’s all that anything is about, coming home to Love.

Why is it so difficult to open that door? You’ve spent lifetimes trying to protect an image and it’s never worked, because the fear grips you and goes with you everywhere. There’s no respite in the hiding. And the other thing that the hiding does, which is such a typical ego thing to do, is that when you’re hiding your mistakes, your errors, your imagination makes them bigger and bigger. Your imagination, your fantasies get bigger and bigger about all that you’ve believed about yourself. The crimes become bigger, the wrongdoings become huge, and you’re terrified of them because you keep holding onto them instead of “Holy Spirit, I made these up. I made these up and I used them, and I tried to gain from them, but I was mistaken. I was mistaken. And I’m here to forgive myself for all the Beloveds that I was jealous of, that I was envious of, that I was lying to, that I was afraid of.”

I was afraid of so many…I was afraid of the beloveds who came as my children. I was terrified of them. I was terrified of them…I had no idea what to do with them. And I was terrified because I knew that I was going to be a terrible parent. That was my secret. Afraid of children. To give that back to God and say “this can’t be the truth. This can’t be. You’ve promised that the past is a fantasy. It’s an illusion. And so it must be. And so I have to surrender. It doesn’t matter when. It doesn’t matter that they were no longer children. I was not able to love. I had no connection to Love. Every decision I made for them was based on fear. Fear for me, not fear for them. Fear for me.”

That is the place that all the healing occurs in. The Light comes through, and you are released from the burden of the lies that seem so real. And you stand up to the Truth. It’s not about apologizing. That’s what the ego would love you to think. “Please apologize!” That’s the ego whispering… “Please apologize!” Grovel, apologize. No! Forgiveness is not about apologizing. Forgiveness is about acknowledging “I was mistaken. I forgive myself for having been mistaken. Nobody else did anything. I was mistaken.”

I wasn’t there to parse who was in my life that was just as faulty as I was. Not my business. It was not my business to see who in my life was complicit in my lies and join me in being a liar. Join me in my made up identities. Not my business. My business was to forgive myself for holding every single one of them in a false identity. That was my business. Those were my lies.

It’s turning it upside down, right side up that you discover that Love is there in the forgiveness. Love is blooming from the honesty. From the recognition “I was mistaken. I don’t know who I am, but thank God, thank God God knows the Truth.” You don’t have to figure out how you’re going to unravel anything. The Holy Spirit does all of that completely. Completely.

Wait for the Holy Spirit to guide you or you will add ego onto him.

Now there’s a choice. Wait for the Holy Spirit to guide you or if you try to take the situation and make sense out of it with your mind, you will be putting the ego on the Holy Spirit and you won’t recognize the Holy Spirit anymore. You’re just bringing willingness – that’s it. But, it’s everything because it’s all that there is. All that there is. Trust in your willingness. It would seem that there wouldn’t be much to trust because all it is is willingness. But, again, it’s all that’s needed. And what’s so important about it is that it leaves the room open for the Divine’s Creative healing. It puts you into the Divine Hospital so that you can be attended to because you’re willing to be there.

You’re not kicking and screaming. You’re not resistant. You’re not reluctant. You’re not begrudging it. You’re saying “YES! YES! Come and heal me as I sleep.” I used to say that prayer every night. “Come and heal me as I sleep. I’m available. I’m willing. Whatever you want to heal while I’m sleeping, I’m ready. If it takes 100 years to heal all this insanity, I’m willing.” But I’m going to just keep moving toward that healing.

Forever, forever, forever, para sempre, para sempre, forever I am with God. Forever, forever, forever I am with God.

Let that sing in your heart while you invite the Holy Spirit for healing. There is nothing that you’re going to see about healing that should be that shocking. Mainly because it was what you walked. It’s just the willingness to shed the Light on it…whatever it is. Always remembering that there is no difference between an irritation, or pure out hatred, murder, whatever. So, it doesn’t matter. It’s all a mistake. To hold that you want to murder somebody is also a mistake. But the hatred that goes with it has to be brought to the Light, too. To really want to murder somebody pours like a poison through the system.

I saw myself as a potential murderer. I believed I had the capacity to murder. That I would have murdered. Was it a mistake, or was it condemnation? That was my choice. God was saying it was a mistake. It was a mistaken identity. It was a mistaken identity within a fantasy of a life that wasn’t the Truth. I had to accept that and that I was not cursed by my murderous thoughts. Because, they weren’t just thoughts. They carried all the energy of actually going through with it, of wanting that person dead, and being glad to be the one to be able to do it.

Is that different from anything else? No it isn’t. It’s a mistake. It’s a mistake. Was I tarnished by that? No, I was not. It was a mistake. Everything you carry of what you think you are, is not the Truth. Here’s the thing with healing. It’s because you’re not just asking for healing from the lies, the deception, the murderous thoughts. You’re wanting to be free of the concept of a personal self. Free of having to prove worth all the time, of having to align yourself to be better than because you believe in scarcity. We have all believed in scarcity. We have believed that there wasn’t enough. How does that translate? It translates into that everything becomes a worry.

Are you going to have enough? Is there going to be enough for you? And everybody has felt the yuck, for the lack of a better term, the yuck of somebody else having something and you wanting it. “How did they get that? How come I don’t have that?” And in fear, burying that as quickly as possible because you don’t want anybody to be aware of it. But, it’s there. And it’s because the belief, the main belief in the belief of separation is scarcity. It’s essential to the ego’s makeup. It’s essential for fear to rule that everybody believe that there isn’t enough. Through this false belief, you are basically at war with everyone around you. You’re secretly thinking, “wait a minute, I want that. Why are you here? If you’re here, I can’t have that.” And the belief in scarcity runs the universe of the ego, completely. But, everybody has this system that’s been so refined that as soon as the jealousy or envy or whatever it is, or greed or whatever or however it comes out, as soon as that hits, it’s shoved away, it is justified, and you activate your role as a victim. Scarcity affirms the role of the victim. And then the mask is back on of “oh no, it’s fine, except I wanted it.”

These are all mistakes because there is no scarcity. That’s all made up. Everybody’s believed it. When you go to bed hungry, you believe there’s scarcity. When you wake up hungry, you believe that there’s scarcity. When everything is cold because there’s no heat, you believe that there’s scarcity. But, this is not the Truth. This is the nightmare that you made that has no Truth to it. And the willingness is to accept that, that you are the innocence and Light of God. How difficult is that to just accept it? Right now! [simulates choking] “No, no, I don’t want to accept it. No, no, no.” That’s how resistant the ego can be. Playing such a game. That your heart would just say “Yes! I want this. I want to accept this. I want to come home. I want to remember”. And your ego is saying “nope. Nope.” And you believe that voice.

You believe the ego. Don’t believe the ego. Please! It’s so ridiculous. It’s so ridiculous. It’s just following the same old stuff and at some point, everybody is going to say NO. Embrace the right use of denial. “No, I’m not buying this anymore. I’m not playing this game anymore”. And start looking at the tiredness of playing the game, of how tiring it is to play the game. To take care of a façade is a lot of work. It’s a lot of labor intensive work. And, it’s so tiring. It’s like being a professional liar. How does a professional liar live their life and keep track of the lies that they tell? It’s impossible. So you have to …make a script. Don’t give the ego your script. Don’t follow the ways of the past. There’s just nothing there for you.

The Truth of your being is wanting to be brought to illumination. But nobody can bring your being to illumination except your choice. That’s it. Thank God it doesn’t take a huge amount, but it does take all the willingness that you have. And the thing with willingness is that the ego would also like you to believe that you could just say “I’m willing. I’m willing. Okay.” And then, the next day, you don’t have to be willing. But it’s beginning again over and over and over again. “I’m still willing. I’m still willing Holy Spirit. I’m willing. In case I forget, I’m willing. This is what I want. This is what I’m here for.” And you call on all the Masters that you could and there are plenty of Masters that are so willing to help. Every single one of them is the Divine Teacher of Love. And everyone has the Guides that are necessary. There’s no one that has more Guides than somebody else. If you have one Guide that is supposed to be your Guide, it’s because the Holy Spirit knows exactly that you will do better with that one guide for now.

You’re comparing to somebody else…somebody else says “I have three Guides.” “Why do they have three guides, I only have one Guide?” You don’t have to spend any time on ego identity with one, two, three or anything else. If you have one Guide, it’s because that is the perfect guide for you. If you have three Guides, it’s because the Holy Spirit has deemed it that three would be helpful for you. Sometimes a Guide will come in and then the Guide…when their piece of work is finished with you, then they go back here [gestures] and another one comes in and they are all working in unison for you because you are so loved. The guidance is there because we can’t remember without guidance. We can’t separate our thoughts and come up with conclusions.

This is what the ego loves. The ego loves it when somebody has thoughts and their thinking thoughts about what the healing is and how it should go instead of “I don’t know. I don’t know. All I’m saying is I’m willing and I forgive myself for everything I made up. It’s not God’s will for me to suffer.” Let that be your prayer. It’s not God’s will for you to suffer. Not at all.

How long will this pain go on Dear Lord? This grief I can hardly bear.
How long will anguish grip me in this illusion, And agony ring in my mind?

Light up my eyes with your presence.
Let me feel your Love in my bones.
Keep me from losing myself in ignorance and despair. Teach me to be patient Dear Lord.
Teach me to be endlessly patient.
Let me trust that your Love enfolds me.
When my heart feels desolate and dry.
I will sing to the Lord at all times
Even from the depths of pain.

Even from anywhere I will keep saying “show me the way. Show me the way. Show me the way. It’s all that I want. It’s all that my living is for. Show me the way.”

You have everything because you have willingness. You have everything because this is where your journey has brought you. To these incredibly deep teachings that will take you and take you and take you. That you never have to wonder about the Truth because you have so much that reflects the Truth. Willing to be shown. Willing to learn. Willing to be healed.

The Heart says YES.

Chris Celine © 2017